Day 56 : When you're lost, turn around to find your way back

When you walk in the forest during winter time, every step leave a footprint on the ground. If at some point you realize that you are lost, you have to turn around and start walking in reverse. At some point you will be back to where you are from and you won't be lost anymore. If you are lost and refuse to admit it, you can keep walking and walking and walking. But if you go in the wrong direction, you will be in a worse situation. By refusing to use common sense and walking in reverse, you will end up freezing to death.

That was of course a metaphor to introduce how easily we have lost in common sense.

We are all lost in our mind. We are thinking all day long. The thinking never stop, it started when we wake up, and stop when we fall asleep.

Unfortunately, the ego don't want to admit that we are lost, because he want to be right at all cost. That's the point where we forget to use our common sense.

If we would have common sense, we would stop and turn 180 degree and start walking in reverse until we reach the point where we are not lost anymore.

Instead of footprint in the snow, our mind have been imprinted by thought/emotion/feeling,  they all show us what step need to be ''walked in reverse''

We didn't always think, so what where we when we wasn't thinking? I guess that the only way to find out is to walk in reverse until I get there and see what remain.

In that sense, it's now clear that self-betterment is really only based on delusion, because it's all mind based. We can only be more than other in our mind, but in reality, we are all flesh and bones and are all physically equal. Fascinating that the concept of king and slave have become so real in our mind that we have manifest it in our physical existence. Pretty fucked up !

By trying to make myself better, I am only increasing the separation between me and other person. Fortunately, delusion is not sustainable and when we go to much further into our delusion, we have to face an inevitable crash where we loose everything( sounds like the story of jobs). If we survive this, we don't have any other option to start being self-honest and admit that delusion doesn't work very well. That's where can start to deconstruct the lie that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become by starting to walking in reverse.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-betterment is increasing the sense of separation between human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the polarity better/less have create huge amount of suffering on this planet, where people think that they are more deserving than other

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to give up self-betterment and start walking in reverse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the common sense of walking in reverse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing myself by deconstruction who I have become as mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a sense of identity to my thought/emotion/feeling

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the first step to find myself was first to admit that I was going into the wrong direction.

Day 55 : if you want to hide something put it in plain sight

If you want to hide something put it in plain sight

Everyone is trying to find what are the secrets of existence.

Fascinating all the crazy stuff that we can come up within our mind.

When someone say to me, my body is not real, the thought that came into my mind is : '' I wonder if they will still thinking that way when they will be in pain after I punch them in the face lol ''

There's also all the ''quantum thinker'' that explain me that the tree only exist because we create it with our mind. It's so curious that a person that is born blind will hit that tree if they walk into even if they couldn't even conceive what a tree look like.

Where do I want to go with that. People have become so obsess about trying to understand what reality is through their mind that they are not able to see what's in front of them anymore. For them the physical world is not real so they can do whatever they want without consequence. Unfortunately that kind of attitude have lead us is a pretty fucked up situation where people are dying from atrocious conditions.

It's right in front of us, how can we miss it. How dare we saying that our body is not fucking real lol.

When we think about it, we are limitless in our ability to create delusion in our mind.

It's kind of saying, that if I put green sunglasses, the entire world have become green when in fact we have put a filter between us and the world that change the way we perceive it.

Does perceptions is reality? Yeah, the reality of our little bubble we create in our mind not ''THE REALITY''. The ironic thing is that our mind is generated by our body, so the ego is kind of arrogant to pretend that the body that generate it is not real lol.

The real world is right in front of us, but we can't really see it because we are so fucking stuck in our mind.

Fuck you mind, I take a breath ( brake) from you

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every knowledge of what reality can't be trust, because knowledge only exist in the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my physical body wasn't real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thing that the physical world wasn't real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I could shape reality with my mind, when in fact, I only shape my perception of reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the real world is right in front of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I was more than the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am equal and one with everything in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to access to reality through thinking

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that breathing bring my back in the real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the consequence of only existing as a mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my identity by acknowledging my equality with everything that exist



When I find myself being lost in my thought, I stop and breath

I commit myself to stop any form of delusion




 

day 54: When the truth hurt we are getting somewhere

Last week I was listening to an audio from Bernard Poolman.

In that audio he shared the following concept: those who try to make you feel good do not expose you to the truth. The truth hurt! When the truth hurt, you know you are getting somewhere.

From my own experience, I did experience what he talk about.

When I was seeking the « truth » that feel good, I wasn’t getting anywhere. I was just looping the same loop over and over, because that « truth » wasn’t really the truth, it’s was all mind/ego/self interest based.

When I have been exposed to the « truth » that hurt,it didn’t feel good, because for the first time of my life I had to face myself. I had to take responsibility for everything that I have accepted and allowed within me.

I then had to be self-honest about all the suffering that’s happening within this world and how I was actively participating in a system that was creating that suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use feelings as way to mesure if I was exposed to the truth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek the « truth » instead of finding the truth in what is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not use common sense to see the truth of reality in front of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create truth as a mind concept without realizing that I had no idea of what’s really going on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that truth hurts

Day 53: Love or Life ?

We are hear those beautiful speeches about how love will change the world.
When we look at at history, we can see that love haven’t change anything in this world.
Love by definition is a feeling.
We have to be delusional to think that a feeling will change the system of enslavement we are all in.
We have to be delusional to think that a feeling will eliminate poverty
We have to be delusional to think that a feeling will change the money system
We have to be delusional to think that a feeling has any impact on physical reality.


Now let’s look at life. Life is something real, tangible.valuable

In the name of love, we have suppress life. Thousands of people are dying in horrible conditions every single day, while we have more than enough resources for everybody.

We still have wars, nobody trust each other.

What a loving humanity we are !

It’s time to end the delusion and bring back life in the equation.

When everyone will have access to a life of dignity, we will know what real love is, because at this
Point, we won’t have the fear that’s always attached to that love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that love is a feeling

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a solution based on a feeling can’t be sustainable, because a feeling is temporary

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look at the real definition of the word love, and based my definition of love on feeling,memories and images that have been programmed by my environment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that love is self interest based

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that love is something that I am generating

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that love can’t exist without fear.

I commit myself to honour life.

I commit to not rely on love to bring change in this world

I commit myself to use practical measurable ways to bring change in this world.

Day 52: Born as a slave

That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else, you were born into bondage. Born into a prison that you cannot smell or taste or touch. A prison for your mind - Morpheus

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am born in a world of slavery

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order for me to be free, every human being must be free

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I was free without realizing that my thought/emotion/feeling are happening automatically and operate every aspect of my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to seek freedom, a slave must be aware that he is a slave

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my free choice was in fact the unfolding of a preprogram design

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that humanity is bound by their own self-interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am bound by my own self-interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have the right to freedom, when in fact I participate everyday in a system that enslave other human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that real freedom can only exist in a world that is best for all

Day 51 : The concequence of a competitive money system

As we are born in a competitive money system, where we have to fight for our survival from the day we are born until we die, it's hard for people to conceive what's possible if we would cooperate to create a world that is best instead of competing to survive.

Our entire system is based on survival.

There's no guaranteed in this life, if we don't find a way to adapt ourselves to that system, the system crush us.

This in not without consequence. Because we fail to cooperate with each other to create a world that is best for everybody, we have to fight with each other in order to get a great position in the system.

Like an Olympic competition, there's only one gold medal. What characteristic all the gold medal winner have in common ? They are ruthless. They have no consideration at all for their opponent, because their goal is to win at all cost.

Our entire money system is very similar than an Olympic competition. In order to reach the top in this system, a person have to be ruthless and don't have any consideration for other human being. It's simply the way that the system is design.

Now, let's be clear. In order to change this system we need to equalize it, therefore a significant amount of money will be require to change it. In another word, we need to be ruthless to create a world that is best for all. Not ruthless toward other human being, but ruthless toward our collective programming. In another word, being a good citizen, according to our cultural brainwashing will only perpetuate the current system in place. Our conception of good or bad is so corrupt that we cannot use that as an indicator. We have to start looking at what is best or not, but even that is challenging when we see it from the perspective of our preprogram accepted reality.

Is there a way out?

In fact we always had a way out, but we cannot see it because of our preprogramming of survival. We are so busy surviving that our entire focus is  on that point. And the money system is perfectly design to keep us in that state.


What would be the first step.

The first step that need to be address is education. In order to be able to understand what is going inside/out, a minimum level of vocabulary is require.

People that have a low level of vocabulary can also easily be influence by the media and programming as explain in the documentary ''the century of the self''

Another issue with a low level of education is that people with a low vocabulary can not express effectively what they are feeling. Because they doesn't have the word, they have no way out. They then become violent to get that energy out. With the automation that is coming, those who was relying on jobs that wasn't require any particular level of vocabulary will become out of control and start revolution. As history have showed us, revolution always bring us back to the starting point, because we never address the root cause.


The problem we have is that our schooling system doesn't allow us to reach such a minimum level of vocabulary. Therefore it's the parents responsibility to make sure that the child receive the best education. Unfortunately, it's in some case very hard to do for parents with a low income, because they have to put their survival first.

Once a certain level of vocabulary is understood, the process can be walk. Without a basic vocabulary, it will be impossible for a person to grasp the concept of mind, thought, emotion and feeling.

It's through the understanding of those concept that a person can start to walk the process and start becoming aware of what's going on inside of them.

Eventually, as the they move themselves in the process, they will be able to reach the point of nothingness. At this point, a person can be trust, because they are not directed by their mind anymore. They then have to reprogram themselves to do what is best

As I am writing this, I am not even done with my first years. Therefore, I can't be trust and I know it.

Since the process is so long, and very few people are willing to even start it, we will see the unfolding of the collective preprogramming and that will not be a pretty picture.

Since our system is based on a collective agreement, once the mass will start to realize that they have been betrayed by a system that they have put their trust in, they will become out of control. Since our entire system is based on trust, we will assist to a massive collapsing.

Everyone will look for someone to blame. Very few peoples will look at themselves and see that the system is really just a reflection of our own self-interest that we have never be willing to give up to created what is best.

Certain thing are inevitable, but I can not use that as an excuse to not move myself. I am in charge of my own process. My first step is to take responsibility to fix my own resonance so I can be someone that can be trust. I can not keep living as mind and expecting create change in the system when the very core of who I am is absolute deception.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself with world event as an excuse to not focus on my individual process

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt in the value of the process

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that our money system keep people in survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the system would collapse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself with thing that I have no control over it to distract myself from doing what I do have the control on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be willing to do whatever it take to create a world that is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel discourage about people unresponsiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel anger towards people that don't give a fuck

Day 50 : Does destiny is a fatality ?

Before we start, let's define destiny

des·ti·ny

noun

noun: destiny; plural noun: destinies

the events that will necessarily happen to a particular person or thing in the future.

"she was unable to control her own destiny"

the hidden power believed to control what will happen in the future; fate.

"he believes in destiny"

Origin

Middle English: from Old French destinee, from Latin destinata, feminine past participle of destinare ‘make firm, establish’.

We often people saying thing like, it was my destiny to be in that situation today. Do they really understand the implication of that affirmation?  

If this is true, where's the free will in that. 

I like the metaphor with the seed in the audio resonant seed ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=om3hbaqO_cs&t=52s) 

Our destiny would be the unfolding of the seed of our preprograming. 

Our destiny would be contain in our resonant seed

It's like a tree. His destiny is contain in his seed. Even if it seems that the tree is evolving, that have nothing to do with evolution since the entire life of the tree was already written. The only thing that determine if the tree would reach his greatest potential is the environment in which that tree is growing. 

If we look at the origin of the word, destiny came from destinare which mean make firm, establish. 

Now the question is: Do I have more free will than a tree? 

Physically, there's some aspect that are the way they are. I would waste my time to try to change that. 

But the mind, which is absolute deception and in total control of the physical body, can be deconstruct. I know that such thing is possible, because it's have been done. I also have experiencing some kind of liberation as I have remove few layer as I start walking the process. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the concept of destiny, it a word that represent the concept of our preprogram design

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that destiny can be alter by walking the process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that altering destiny doesn't mean changing direction it's instead a decision to walk back in reverse to deconstruct what build my current destiny. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I could have free will without deconstructing the mind by walking a 7 years process. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the difference between consciousness and awareness. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I don't have free will if I am operating from consciousness.

Day 49 : We don't have free will

I was listening to an audio where Bernard explain that the only choice we have is choosing between the option that are available to us within our preprogram accepted reality.

Since every thought that we have can only be generated within the limit of our programming, what we have is nothing close to free will.

A real free will would not be subject to limitation.

He also mention in another audio that the only 2 options that we have are choosing between self interest or what is best for all.

Now it seems to me that the other challenge that we are facing is that even our conception of a world that is best for all is subject to our programming, therefore it's easy to have an opinion about what is best without really knowing how reality operate. For this reason, the process become the way to get out of the fog of self-interest and become a living example of what's best.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have free will

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think wanting to have the right for MY opinion and discarding what is best, is self-interest based

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what is best is not rooted in opinion but in common sense and consider how reality operate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only 2 options that I have are choosing between what is best or self-interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind will always choose self-interest, because what is best is perceive as a threat for the mind.

Day 48: Exposing the parasitic mind

A parasite need his host To feed themselves
The host doesn't need the parasite!
How could we have come to think that we need the mind to operate in this world ?
The mind is a smart parasite, he know that if he can convince his host that he is that mind, he will not attack what he believe to be himself
how could such an abuse have been tolerated for so long?
It’s only through secrecy that the mind can control his host.
If we would really be aware, we wouldn’t tolerate that.
Who would deliberately tolerate a parasite that suck the life out of his body?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind is a parasite for the physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could not operate in this world without the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind is conditioned, therefore every thought/emotion/feeling that I have is preprogram

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have free will without realizing that choosing between the option of my accepted reality is not free will

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that getting rid of the parasitic mind is a long process that need to be walk in reverse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for looking for the quick fix to get rid of the mind without considering how reality work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if let my parasitic mind controlling me and if I allow myself to think that I am my mind, I therefore become a parasite for all life on this planet

Day 47 : Why no sustainable change is possible if education isn't adress first

We are facing many challenge on a global scale.

Pollution, poverty, suicide, corruption, automation that replace more and more jobs, civil war, starvation etc.

In order to create a sustainable solution to those problem, we need to address the root cause.  It's a little bit like a disease, many symptoms can manifest, but if we don't find and adress the root cause, it will always came back.

The root cause of all of those problems start with education. So far we have been educated to survive, we have be educated to fear people around us, we have been educated to live a life of self-interest, we have been educated buy stuff, we have been educated to believe.

In addition to that, we are unequal in vocabulary, therefore we cannot communicate with each other properly.

That's the first thing that need to be adress

We need to equalize the vocabulary so we can all speak the same language.
We need to sit together and start having a discussion about what is best for all life ( I don't talk about belief here, I talk about measurable results based on reality that consider what are the real needs of human being)
We need to educate ourselves about how we can live in harmony with all life on this planet.
We need to educate ourselves and our children about how our mind work.

In fact many things need to be done, but none of that will be possible if people can't process information.

Since every informations/knowlege is made of words. The only way we can process it is by increasing our level of vocabulary. When this will be achieve, we will be able to agree on what is best for all and start moving toward that direction as a society.

That change will not come from the top down.

We need to make the decision to bring ourselves to the highest level of education possible, so we can educate our child in a way that consider what's best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no change is possible if education is not adress

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that education start with vocabulary ( Because it's impossible to learn anything if we don't have the words properly integrated)

I commit myself to increase my vocabulary to the highest level possible to become effective in that system

I commit myself to show that, there's effective way to raise ourselves to a high level of education

Day 46 : addiction as a way to escape from the mind

I have always find myself being incredibly judgmental towards people that are smoking cigarettes.
What I haven't realize at that time, is that while I am judging, I was not facing my own challenge with addiction.

Every addiction have all the same purpose. It's a way to feel a relieve from the mind.

In my particular case, I was getting drunk every single weekend, because this was allowing me to release the stress created and accumulated by my mind during the week. Until someone point it to me, I have never realize that this addiction was having huge consequence on my life.

Resisting the uncontrollable urge to fall into addiction, would allow me to face the resistance that's coming up instead of run away from it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every addiction is detrimental

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that addiction are just a way to escape the pain that's created by the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let addiction take control over my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that addiction is just a way to postponing the pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I would be less without the addiction that I have accepted and allowed to become a part of my life.

Day 45 : Facing the fear of being judge

Few days ago, I tried to write but I wasn't able to.
usually I start to write and the words are just flowing, but it wasn't the case.
As I was staring at my white screen I was wondering what was wrong with me?

Few days latter I finally figure it out. The fear of being judge had came back to the surface.
I was sure it was gone, but I was wrong.

In fact it came back with more intensity than ever before.

The ego really didn't like being exposed. I have even consider deleting everything. My blog, video and even my Facebook account.

Instead of doing and giving up, I chose to face the point.

Why do I care so much about what other people think about me ?

In fact what other people think about me is just an automatic response to their programming that have been lay down during the first 7 years of their life. It does not worth more than the opinion of a toaster.

When I think about that, so many people maintain their status quo, because they are afraid of what other people would think of them if they would change.

That's kind of stupid when we really think about that. It would be so much easier to create a descent future for the child of this world if we would not be as busy to maintain that fake image that we have created to fit in our society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judge by other people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to other people opinion without considering the fact that people opinion came from their programmed consciousness/mind system that have been lay down in the first 7 years of their life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to some opinions when in fact those opinions are not considering the real world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be paralyzed by the fear of judgment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being attack/judge/rejected is common when we try to create change, therefore I should not let that stop me from doing what is best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand for what is best for everyone, because of fear of being rejected.  

Day 44: Giving up all hope

The title seems very depressive and pessimistic, but it's in fact a message of empowerment.

First let's take a look at the word hope

hope

noun

noun: hope; plural noun: hopes

1.

a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen.

 

The problem with hope, is that we are relying on outside circumstance in order to fix the problems. In another word, when we say I hope, we basically say : I am not willing to do it myself so I expect that the other person will do it at my place. 

Hope is not without consequence. In fact a person that rely on hope is under control, because you cannot be in charge of your life and be in a state of hope at the same time. It's a deep issue when we really think about it. When we are in hope we give up our authority ( AUTHORity). On a individual level, that's mean that we let someone else be the author of our life. Who want that ? 

When we really see hope for what it is. We can clearly see that hope is incredibly detrimental for the world. It's not by any chance that religion have massively promote hope. By selling hope to people, they was able to maintain control. If every person of this planet give up hope, they lose the control that is maintained by hope.

 

Even if religion system are falling apart, the programming of hope is still very present. 

 

In order to increase our level of responsibilty, we must give up all hope.

 

What people will start doing when they will have give up hope ? they will start acting and moving toward the solution. They will take individual responsibility. They will stop blaming outside circumstance for what's happening into their life. They will become more effective within the system. They will free themselve from the mental torture created by hope. 

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that hope is bullshit

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that hope is something that have been programmed into my dna in the first 7 years of my life

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have hope

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could be responsible for my life and have hope.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the suffering that's created by having hope

 

I commit myself to give up all hope

 

I commit myself to rely on responsibility instead of hope 

 

 

Day 43: Feel good in the process of doing the right things.

Everybody is trying to feel good.

It’s not that there’s something wrong about feeling good.

The problem is when we start denying what’s happening around us in order to feel good.

Denial is just a way to postpone consequences.

In fact all consequences keep accumulating while we are in denial.

At the some point, everything explode in our face. At this moment many people will try to find what outside force is responsible for their misfortune. They blame that life is unfair, that it’s everybody’s fault. Very few people are willing to take 100% responsibility. Unfortunately there’s no other way out.

By acting this way a person can feel good for a while, but it’s just a quick fix. 

Therefore, what I found from my own experience is that when I acknowledge the misery that’s all around me, and I work towards a solution that consider everybody. I do feel really good in the process. Even if Confronting everything that I have accepted and allowed is sometimes very uncomfortable, deep down I have a good feeling within, because I know that I move towards equality, .

In other words, I feel good in the process even if some stage of the process make me feel like crap for a moment, because I know I am doing the right things.

Feeling good in doing the wrong things will never create lasting effects because, if you deny your connection with everyone and everything, you are denying yourself. Therefore, what make you feel good today will make you sad tomorrow. This is just the natural cycle of polarity. You can pretend that gravity doesn’t exist, but the gravity doesn’t care about your opinion. It’s gonna crush you on the ground if you jump from a building. If you are aware of the consequences, you are smart enough to not jump from a building. One of the main problem we have is that people are not even able to see the consequences of what they are doing anymore. That’s why a drastic change in education is required.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for the unpleasant things that have happened to me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing the consequences of what I did 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to feel good without considering how reality operate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that trying to feel good without considering other, is just increasing misery on this planet 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it’s perfectly o.k. to feel good in the process of moving towards equality.

Day 42 : 8 stage of the process part 8 of 8 ( Self-Here)

For context listen to the 8 stage video .

The last stage of the process is the stage of self-here.

Since I am far from being there, so since I can't not even conceive what that stage look like, I cannot really explain it.

From what understand, a person that reach that stage have a complete clarity and understanding about how reality does operate. Those are the person that I can take guidance from since I am still walking my process. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my understanding of reality is limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it's not through the mind that I will access a greater understanding.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my mind is in fact what keep me separate from life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I could achieve that state without having to walk the proven process to deconstruct the consciousness/mind system that prevent me to see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt about the benefits of walking this process for me and all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every human being are in one of those 8 stage, and understanding where they are will help me to have compassion and support them effectively.

Day 41 : 8 stage of the process part 7 of 8 ( Self-perfector)

for context, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA&t=430s

Once you reach that state of nothing. Being here as breath.

At that stage a person start to apply equality in their daily. A person start to understand, their role in this life.


I am clearly not there yet ( Let's be self-honest lol ), But this make lot of sense to me. At that points I can see the multiple stage of the process unfolding overtime.

The illustration that came to my mind is that we spend our entire to build a building that is not only falling apart, but also destructive for everything around him( that would represent self-interest). Let's take a nuclear plant where radioactive material are leaking all around. There is no way to fix that building, since the conception itself was wrong since the very beginning.)

The first 5 stages would be the construction of that building of self-interest

The stage 6 ( 7 years process) would be the deconstruction of that building ( self-honesty, self-forgiveness, self, correction)

The stage 7: Now that the building of self-interest have been destroy and the area completely clean, we now have a clean slate to build something new. Since we have a clearer understanding of what's needed ( Something that is best for all). We can start building accordingly. This building will provide value for the world ( anything that will contribute physically to a world that is best for all).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to become effective to contribute to world that is best for all, I must remove every layer of the mind that maintain me in self-interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the 8 stage process is base on common sense

I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even if the process take time, it's o.k. As long as I start moving in the right direction NOW

Day 40 : 8 stage of the process part 6 of 8 ( self realizer)

For context listen to the video 8 stage of the process https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA

In the video Bernard explain that the self-realizer is the point where a person realize that there's a problem and they have to do self-correction. It's the begining of a 7 years process of walking in reverse and apply self-forgiveness and self-correction.


After spending dozens of years in the 5 first stage, it's almost a liberation to finally enter in a step where I can start deconstruct the lie I have created and maintain during all those years.Of course it's not necessarily agreeable to face the lies that I have created within me over all theses years, but I can clearly see the necessity of it. Once you've take the red pill, you cannot go back in the delusion. Since there's no way to go back, lets move toward the real by deconstructing the layers of the mind one by one.It's time to take 100% responsibility for the misery I have create for myself and other by remaining into denial during my 5 first stage. It's time to be self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to other

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no change is possible without self-honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it gonna take time to deconstruct the layer of the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a life based on self-interest is create suffering for myself and other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to bring a world that is best for all, I must deconstruct everything within me that is not align with that purpose

Day 39 : 8 stage of the process part 5 of 8 ( Self-justifier)

For context listen to the audio 8 stage of the process (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA&t=179s)

In this blog we will take a look of the stage of the self-justifier.

At this stage a person can start seeing that something wrong is going on in this world, but they justify their free will. The concept of a world that is best for all is still a threat for them because they are affraid losing their identity. They are still in a state of separation.

I have been there. I use to think that the problem of this world wasn’t mine. I use to think that the things was just the way it is. I started justifying my position in this world. I started thinking that it wasn’t really my fault if some people was dying in horrible conditions everyday. I think this way until I realize that I was in fact feeding the system that was allowing those things to happen. That realization move me to the next stage.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not realize that I can do something about all the injustice of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a self-justifier

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my identity by moving towards a world that is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that justifying my position was holding me back to create change in this world.

Day 38 : 8 stage of the process part 4 of 8 ( Self-delusioner)

For context listen to the audio 8 stage of the process (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA&t=179s)

In this blog we will adress the stage number 4 : the self delusioner. 

In the audio, Bernard explain that self-delusioner are talking themself into delusion. To create their delusion by using thing like mediation, mantra, prayer, energy work, light work. They them promote their delusion as if it was real.

He aslo explain that the main problem with that stage is that people, are on a path of self-betterment instead of a path of self-perfection. Instead of acknowledge their equality with other human being, they start seeing themself as more than other, or as better than other. This increase the gap of separation between them and other human being and will lead them to the extreme point of polarity.

I know exactly what it is because I have been there. I have invest 10 years into my "self-betterment". I wasn't aware that I was in fact increasing the gap of separation and creating misery within myself. Exactly like mention in the audio, I have reach the extreme of polarity, where I was no longer able to maintain that delusion that I had created for myself. My entire delusion have collapse. Even if this has not happen without suffering, this was necessary to me to move to the next stage.

I can now clearly see the self-delusioner of this world. Many of them put themselves in a position of leader/authority to reinforce their delusion and end up having thousands of follower. Many of them, will never be able to to reach the point of self-honesty and see the lie that they have become. At this point their ego is too big. they can't admit that everything that they convince themselves and their follower was a lie.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a self-delusioner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that become a self-delusioner was a necessary step toward self-honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that mediation,energy work etc. are not fixing the real problem of this world. In fact those thing maintain a person in denial and prevent any real change to occur

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to close my eye on the suffering of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-betterment is in fact increasing the gap of separation and therefore creating more conflict/friction that lead to more suffering on a individual and collective level.

Day 37 : 8 stage of the process part 3 of 8 ( Self-illusioner)

For context listen to the audio 8 stage of the process (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA&t=179s)

In this audio, Bernard explain that a Self-illusioner is someone who go throught life withtout questionning anything. They are doing what they have been taught. If there parents were christian, they are christian. So do do with their life what is require for them to do according to their education to be a good person in this  system. They are totally happy with the system. Because of this they cannot perceive the delusion from it.


From what I did observe so far, it's clear to me that the majority of people fall into that categories. The control of the media is nesserary to maintain people in that state. By controlling the information, they can make people beleive in a certain way and therefore lead them to live a illusionary life without daring question it.

Because their entire paradigm is based on beliefs( what they have been taught), they are not sincerely happy. Deep down they know that swomething is very wrong. Because beliefs are not based on truth, they are in a constant state of fear, doubt, uncertainty. If someone dare to question those believes that there existence is based on, they will fight you. Since a constant state of suffering come with that stage, it seems that they only way to get out is when a person will reach a point where the pain because so unbearable, that they are force to give up their illusion and move to the next step. Unfortunately, many people will never reach that point and live an entire life being a self-illusioner. I guess, the death is the point self honesty. There's no place for bullshit anymore when we are dying.

From my own experience. I have been in that stage in my early life. I was doing my best to follow the advice given by my parents and the society to try to fit in that society as "good person". I have been to college, with the purpose of getting a job and all the bullshit that follow. I always feel that something was very wrong with that world, but I was not able to identify what it was. It's the sudden death of one of my friend, that lead my entire illusionary world to collapse. The roadmap offer by that system was not making so much sense anymore. The path of go to school, get a job, retire was not making so much sense when I realize that I could suddenly die, every single day. When there's no more promise, no more guarantee, that's when the game is starting. If life is not that bullshit, what's life ?

I feel that I am out of the stage of Self-Illusioner, but it's not that simple. When we got out of one illusion, there's another one that come up. It's seems to me that at the moment, we think we have figured it out, we are fucked, because we are now at the mercy of another illusion. That's why I always stay curious, I keep investigating everything and even if I do mistake, I learn from them and move foward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a Self-illusioner

I forigive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my illusion being challenge

I forigive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop investigating

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand why people had so much resistance when their illusion was being challenge

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I had figured it out when in fact, my understanding of how reality really operate is very limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist when my illusion was challenged without realizing that I was trying to protect an irrational beliefs system.

Day 36 : 8 stage of the process part 2 of 8 ( Self-Loser)

For context, listen to the video the 8 stages of the process ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA)

Stage 2 : Self-Loser

In the video, Bernard explain that self-loser are those who have reach the pinnacle of deception. They realize that they was just harming other in what they where doing so they collapse in the system. They start participating in everything, they withdraw from society, they give up everything, they become a constant loser.  They see themselves as incapable of doing anything.

I love case this phase the "hippy phase" I have been there at some level. One of the major issues with that stage is that a person see how fucked the system is, but instead of putting themselves in a position where they can do something to change it, they start to reject every aspect of it. The issue is that we can not reject the system, since the this we are dependant from it. Without money, we cannot survive in this system. A perfect example of self-loser was Christopher Mccandless ( The movie Into the wild is about his biography) . He had this mental picture of how wonderful it would be to live alone in the bush in Alaska, but when he finally withdraw himself from society he died after less than 2 months. That's the main problem that Self-Loser are not able to see, we cannot withdraw ourselves from that system, that's why we need to change it. I also have the opportunity to discuss with many hippies that was complaining against the system, but they was totally comfortable about getting the free meal that was provide for the homeless that didn't have the chance to have enough education to get a job. How Ironic, those hippie was judging the people from being a slave of that system, but they was not seeing that their free meal was provide by the system in place they hated so much.

From my experience, the way I have experience that phase was to not realize that in this current system, money is the key factor to put myself in a position where I can create a significant change. I also had a phase where I had travel for months without really realizing what I was looking for. I was not happy with that system for sure, but it never came into my mind that I could do something about it.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that money is require to bring change in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a Self-loser

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that rejecting the system is a trap, because it put a person in a position where they rely even more on the system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even if this system is completely fucked, I am still dependant on it to survive. Therefore, since I can not withdraw myself from it, the only logical option remaining is to contributing to the best of my ability to change it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use travel as a way to withdraw myself temporary from the system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am the system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am allowing this system to be the way it is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear changing the system

Day 35 : 8 stage of the process part 1 of 8 ( Self-Deceiver)

For context, listen to the video the 8 stages of the process ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA)

I will make a series of 8 blog, where every blog will expand on my personal experience of me moving through those step and ending every blog by applying self-forgiveness on the point that I am still holding within me for each stage.

Stage one : Self-deceiver

The self-deceiver is those who design systems within which they have complete control and benefit from those system. In order to maintain their position of power, they have to control all the parameter that will make sure that the slave remain slave and the people on the top remain on the top.

let's look at few example.

Control of information : With the mass media, social media they are able to control the flow of information. They give the illusion of free speech, but when you start saying something that is going against the interest of their agenda, you are censored, discredit, throw in jail or even killed. The consequence of this is that people start believing in a way that maintain the system in place and serve their agenda. Since people are not aware of how the mind programming work, they think that their point of view is their, therefore they will protect that point of view that maintain the current system in place.

Control of money : In this system, money is require to survive. If you have the control over money, you control who live or die. In USA, the FED are the want that print money(Federal reserve note) whenever they feel the need to. That's sounds like absolute control to me.

Control of education : Even in that system where money is under control, there's still way for a person to earn more money and increase is possibility. To make this, an effective education is require. That's why they make sure they have the control on education. People that doesn't have enough money will not have any other option that sending their kid to public school. It's have been showed in study that kid are born a creative genius, but the education system dumb us down and suppress a person ability to think creatively enough to raise himself to a position of wealth. Phonics method have been remove from the school to make sure child are not really able to learn.

Control of food: Big companies have completely take over the control of food. They are now filling the grocery with food that is depleted from minerals and vitamins, loaded with toxic additive. Because most people have not receive an effective education, they fall in their marketing trap. The consequence of this is poor health, lack of energy etc. Not a very good position to create change in this world.

Control of energy: Gaz, price of electricity, natural gaz etc. are all under control by big companies and since we rely on those thing to survive, we have a very little power of negotiation about the price of those thing.

Control of travel: Travel is restricted more and more so people stay in their country and not expand their world on what's possible. Once a person see another culture, they can see through the programming of their own county.


Now the way I have to approach this point is to look within me and ask myself. What part of me have been a Self-Delusioner? In what situation did I have attempt to take advantage of someone consiously or subconsciously?

I can even take a look at where I put my money. When I buy a pair of shoes that have been made by a underpaid children in another country, I am not any better than the parasitical elite class that live from my labor. I have to be honest here and clearly see how I have allowed myself to be a self-deceiver


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have never been a self-deceiver

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I was a better person than the self-deceiver on this planet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the part of my that was parasitical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take advantage of other people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to be able to change that system, I have to put myself in a position where I can change something and not just surviving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the self-deceiver of this planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the current system is only maintain in place by a collective agreement, therefore we are all responsible for that system of control because we are collectively allowing it to be the way it is.

Day 34: The fear of being wrong

Here's one point that I had to face this week.
I have realize that people's fear of being wrong will overide any common sense they could have.
It's probably the reason why it's so hard to change as a society.
Since the day we are born, our definition of what's right or wrong is programmed within us, and everything that's become a threat for those program that we have accepted and allowed by onself will trigger a survival response. 

People will violently protect their point of view or oppinion even if they are completely irrational. Unfortunetaly, this is not without concequence. All those oppinions, point of views are dividing us, because we have never take the time to define any guideline on a collective level.

If we would set the guideline of what's best for all as a way to direct ourselve, we would eliminate almost every debate, because at the end every debate is about oneself trying to protect their own self-interest. The ironic thing with this is that in a world that is best for all our self interest would be fulfill anyway.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the concequence of my points of views.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create separation between me and other human being because of a conflict of oppinions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to no realize that right or wrong will always generate friction and therefore create more suffering on this planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to no realize that when you truly know something, you don't feel the need to protect it. Therefore, everything I feel threaten, I should look at what's beLIEfs I am holding on to and be willing to challenge those programmed beliefs.

Day 33 : The status quo

As I am interacting other people, I notice a point that came very often.
Most people have came to love the status quo.
They love it so much that they will protect it at all cost.
Even if the consequence of our global status quo are a complete disaster, everybody just want to maintain things the way they are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the status quo is maintain by social pressure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being criticize for standing up and speaking up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that people are programmed to not change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when people are attacking my oppinions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that people will hold and protect their opinions because their sense of identity is attach to it, therefore being wrong could mean losing a part of who they are. 

Day 32 : Responsible for what's happening within me

The first time, I heard about take 100% responsibility for anything and everything in my life, I had no idea how profound this concept was.

In my mind, I was thinking I was taking responsibility for everything, but it wasn't the case at all.

I haven't realize that real responsibility is implies what is happening within me. Every thought, Every emotion, Every feeling.

How could I pretend being responsible if I am not even aware of the consequence of my thought/emotion/feeling that run on autopilot.

I think responsibility probably start by at least becoming aware of the dysfunction within me. If those thing are the result of years of programming imprinted during the first 7 years of my life, it's my responsibility to deconstruct that programming, by using the tools and process that have been proven to work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was taking 100 % responsiblity for my life without considering what was happening within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking responsibility for my thought, emotions and feelings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can not be responsible for everything if I am a slave from my mind.

Day 31 : Seeking pleasure until we die

Why it is so hard for people to stand up and become an active part of the creation of a world that is best for all.
Every human being that have not completely give up their common sense can agree that everyone would benefit from a world that is best for all. So why people want to stay in denial ?

Its seems to me that the answer to that question is : Fear of death.

I have hear that statement thousands of time : life is shot so we must live it to the fullest.

Unfortunately the definition people have about living to the fullest doesn't really connect with what life really is. When people reffer about living to the fullest, they always reffer at " ganing pleasure" . And there's limitless way to came to this end. Alcool, drugs, buying stuff, travelling, spirituallity, positivie thinking, junk food etc.

All those thing are at different level detrimental to life, because the whole is never consider. It's always about how much pleasure I can extract from those thing.

And because the clock is ticking, there is no time to lose, we have to hurry up so we can accumulate as most a pleasurable experience before we die.

The ironie of this is that doing those thing have concequence.

Drugs, alcool and fast food fucked the physical body

Buying stuff that we can not afford can lead use to massive debts that will produce huge amount of stress that is also detrimental for the physical body

spirituality and positive thinking are generally a form of denial that lead to passivity.

The traveler Junky is not able to face the "boring" real life so he will always seek the next fix like a heroin addict.

And because all those attemps to feel pleasure are lead by self interest, the concequence on a global scale are : the destruction of our ecosystem, pollution, exploitation of other human being, animal cruelty

All of this, so we can our fix of pleasure.

As we can see we have all been misled. We can also see that the long therm concequence if we keep moving in that direction will be a complete disaster.

Is that the legacy we want to leave to our children ?

Of course not!

Can you immagine being fill with regret on your death bed, knowing that you had the opportunity to do something significant with your life, but you failed to take that chance because you rather seeking pleasure.

Guess what creating a world that is best for all can be a very gratifing pleasurable experience. You can have it all. Doing the right thing and get the pleasurable feeling. When have nothing to lose to move towards a world that is best for all. We have everything to lose in a life of self-interest. Self interest is a path of eternal fear and misery. Don't the choice seems obvious to you ?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek pleasure without having a complete awareness of the concequence of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a world that is best for all is just the logical thing to do so everyone can have a pleasurable existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that moving toward a world that is best for all can be a pleasureable process, therefore, I am not really giving up anything by moving toward that path.

Day 30 : Justification as a way to avoid real change

We it's time to face ourselves as the role we play on a individual level or on a collective level, we often have a tendency to reject our responsibility.

Many expression reflect that denial of our responsibility.
It's not my fault
I am this way because of this
I am this way because of my parent
It's just the way it is
etc.

Unfortunatelty, there's abomination that are going on on this planet right now, and as long as we don't take 100 % reponsibility to bring that change it's not gonna happen.

When we look at history, even some awesome guy that bring great message of equality have failed to create real change in this world. In fact things are just getting worse and worse.

Why ?

Because nobody want's to take responsibility for bringing that change. In most case, the message remain a message. Let's take health for example, it most case, people will wait to get a life threatening disease before they start doing the right thing to be healthy.

We have the same fucking primitive mentality when it's about our planet. We see that there's no future for us if we keep doing the same fucking thing, but we remain in denial and just postponed the consequence of our actions until our own life is threatened.

So we came to value our own life more than other people life. People are dying everyday and we have become insensitive to that because we don't want those thing to distract ourselves from our pursuit of happiness ( Or the trap of eternal insasisfaction).

It's almost like if we would have reduce our entire life to try to accumulate as most pleasure as we can until we die.

That trap prevent us to stand up and do something significant with our life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take 100 % responsibility for the consequence of my action on a individual and collective level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in denial about the suffering that is going on around me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my life was more valuable than other people life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if nobody stand up and live the principle of equality, nothing gonna change. Therefore, I have to stand up and walk my own process to inspire people in my surrounding to start standing up to, by using the simple equation of 1+1=2

Day 29 : I don't want to write a blog today

The reason why I am writing this blog is because I don't want to do it.

What I recently realize is that when we don't feel like doing something, this is generally the thing we should do.

By writing that blog, I chose to overcome the resistance within me. I chose to not let that resistance direct my decision to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my inner resistance prevent me from doing what I know I should do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone what I should do because I my mind convince me that "I don't feel like" was an acceptable reason.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make excuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that because I don't want to do something doesn't mean that I should not do it.

Day 28 : The trap of following our feeling

It take my a while to figure this point out, but since I did I experience unprecedented clarity.

In the world of personal development, there's a huge misconception that lead many people to a life of misery and confusion.

There's many teacher that say that if we want to get what we want in life, we should follow our feeling, or listen to our feeling. The feeling is always right.

The things is that almost none of them really know where does feeling come from.

One time one guy that I highly respect teach me that I can not trust my thought, I can only trust my feeling.  He explain that our thought are " wrong" and will deceive us, but our feeling are always "right" so we can follow them.

Since a feeling is a reaction to a thought, and the thought is fucked and deceiving me, that's mean that following my feeling is as misleading than following my thought.

What a liberation, but now how do I know if I am on the right tract?

Overtime, I found what' work for me.

Self-Honesty : Instead of trying to follow or listen to thought or feeling within me, I can take an honest look at what's happening within me.

Common sense: Instead of relying on thought and feeling, I can always look from the perspective of common sense. How to make sure that my vision of common sense is not corrupt ? By looking at it from the ultimate point of common sense : Is what I am doing or not doing is best for all or not?

Self-Responsibility : If something take the responsibility out of me, this is not to my benefit. If it's "increasing" my level of responsibility, it is to my benefit.


By using those tool as self-guidance, I am way more stable than trying to follow my feeling.

Many teacher say to follow our bliss. From my perspective it's misleading. Bliss experience as one extreme of the polarity will lead a person to feel completely empty and depressed. If you trow something in the air, it will eventually go down and hit the ground.

I think real bliss can only be experienced by having absolute certainty that you are doing the right thing.

And by right I mean : Best for all of us !

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow my feeling

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that following my feeling keeping me in an endless cycle of suffering/pleasure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can not trust my feeling since they are a part of my mind construct system that is completely fucked

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not knowing how to direct myself effectively in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that real self-responsibility is also to take responsibility for what's happening within me.


I commit myself to be aware of my though/emotion/feeling and bring my awareness back on something real like my breath instead of being lead by energetic impulses generate by the body.

Day 27 : Mistake are just miss take

We have all done thing in the past that we wish we would have make them differently. Sometime the concequence of thoses things that we have done are still affecting our life.We perceive those things as mistake. Almost like something bad we did.We call them mistake.A mistake could be define as : "an action or judgment that is misguided or wrong."

When we feel that we have done something wrong in the past, we feel stuck in the present, because we are always affraid to make another mistake. What we don't realise is that mistake are in fact only miss take. If we take a child that learn how to walk. Do you think that he perceive the fact of falling as a mistake ? No he learn from, try again, fall again, learn from it, try again etc.

He repeat that process until he successfully walk. Why that child never give up ? Because he fall he didn't perceive that as a mistake.

Consider this statement from one of the greatest hockey player of all time : " You miss 100 % of the shot you don't take" - Wayne Gretzky

He have score more goal than many other player, but what very few people talk about is the fact that he also miss more shot than most of the hockey player.

So the point is that he was not affraid to take a shot. He wasn't feeling bad when he take a shot and didn't score. He was instantly focus on the  next shot he would take.

Imagine if we could have that kind of attitude with the our mistake in life. If we could start perceiving them as a miss take, we would be able to remove all the guilt, remorse, shame or other emotion attach to it. This would allow ourselve to keep "taking shot". In another word, keep moving foward no matter how much "mistake" we have made in life.

I have personnally make  many mistake in my life and there's many of them that I am far from being proud of. One thing is sure, I can not go back in the past and fix them, but what I can do is seeing those mistake as a part of a growing process that lead me where I am today in a place where I can now have a real sustainable impact on this world if I chose to. I think the only real mistake that a person could do is to stop trying because of fear of making a misstake, because when we stop acting because of fear of making mistake, failure is guaranteed.

In order to create a world that is best for all, we can not let the mistake of the past hold us back. Yes we will keep doing mistake in the process, but if we are self-honest about them, they could be a great opportunity to remove layer from the mind and moving towards self-perfection. Therefore, every mistake from now will be welcome.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistake

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that mistake are in fact miss take

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that making mistake is a part of the growing process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I don't take action because of fear of making mistake, I am sure that I will failed, therefore, it worth giving it a try

Day 26 : The resonant seed of my life

For context listen to the audio The resonant seed from Benard Poolman. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=om3hbaqO_cs

My understanding of this particular audio is still limited by my level of vocabulary, but I was still able to grasp some very significant points

When I listen to that video, I was blown away by the explanation that Bernard give to the group about what time and events are in reality.

He explain that in a seeds, everything is pre-program. A seeds contain all the events that will unfold through time. 

He then explain that we as human are pre-program, by the genetics we receive from our parents ( the sins of father of the last 7 generations.

From my current understanding, after the first 7 years of the child, the pre-program is complete and the rest of a person life will be as predictable as the future of a plant.

And even if we think we have free will, we are all driven by our unconsious and subconsicous behaviour  anyway. What we think is free will is in fact the illusion of free will since we are trapped in that programming.

If the programming of the last 7 generations was fucked, we are pretty fucked too.

If we hold within our genetic baggage 7 generations of crap, we have a great clean up to do. When we look at the grand scheme of think 7-14 years is not a big deal if it's allowed us to get rid of 7 generations of condemnation.

This audio remind me one particular scene in the trilogy The matrix. Neo, had to make a successions of decisions to be able to met the architect and fulfill the prophecy and end up the war between the man and the machine.

To his amazement, the architect explain to him that every single one of decision was preprogram to lead him where he was at that moment. The fact that he was here at that moment was showing that none of his decision was the product of free will. Even when he chose the red pill, that was pre-program too.

What that audio from Bernard show to me is that every decision that I have make and not make in my past was also predictable.

The great news is that my pre-program have lead me into a place of self-honesty where the real change can start. It's sad to notice that many people destini are to die in denial.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I was pre-program
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything in nature is pre-program
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that since I am pre-program, I don't really have free will
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every decision I have made or not made was a reflection of my pre-program
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that pre-program need to be understood and adress in order to create real change.   

Day 25 : We are all going through shit

Few weeks ago, I had a call with a group of people that stand within the principle of creating a world that is best for all. The host of the call ask us 2 question. I don't remember the exact questions, but it was looking like this
1. What is going well in your life ?
2. What challenge are you currently facing ?

Every member talk about one great realization they had during the week, but then they talk about the challenge they where facing.

There's nobody on the call that didn't mention that they weren't facing any challenge.

After everybody had talk, the host of that call ask us if we realize something as we all hear about everyone challenge.

He then explain that  point : Everyone is going through shit, including myself.

I found that point to be very significant. Here's why.

We all have a mental image of what a great life look like.
Here's few example.

An happy marriage
A successful businessman
A successful athlete
A multi-milionaire
A person who seems to be happy all the time
A president
A successful lawyers
An happy family
Etc.

All those thing are just images created in our mind. And by trying to achieve those thing that doesn't really reflect the reality of how thing is really going on, we are on a path of eternal dissatisfaction.

Even if some people are really good at projecting those images, we never really see what's going on behind the curtain.

And since we are all going through shit, why are we not honest about it ?

The social pressure have become so unbearable that a huge amount of energy is require to maintain that fake image in order to fit in that society.

But, here's the problem. Since we are all playing that game of image projection, there's no way we can support each other since we are all lying about what's really going on inside of us.

That's completly fucked.

And because we are in a competitive environment,  we cannot show our weakness, because another person could take advantage of it and use that to destroy us.

How stupid can we be ?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that success was real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that real success should be measure by " does what I am doing is bringing a world that is best for all or not"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the image of success is created by the society, but what society define as success rarely consider life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that real success is going towards equality and not becoming more than other

I forgive myself to not realize that real success make sure that everyone win

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can redefine success in a way that is best for all, therefore still doing whatever it take to become as successful as I can in this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everyone is going through shit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel less than other when I am going through shit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself when thing are not going well in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to no realize that when thing are not going well in my life, I have a great opportunity to face the resistance within me.
 

Day 24: A dream in a dream

In the movie Inception, there's one particular scene that is very interesting. One of the character is awaken from a dream. He then think that what he is experiencing is his real life. After touching the carpet on the floor he realize that he was just in another dream. The first dream was a dream within the second dream.

Now let's see how this concept seems to apply in real life.

When we are asleep we are facing a fascinating world. Our mind is generating that dream world. The fascinating thing is that even if that dream world is not real, it does affect the body in reality. While we are living this movie in our head. Our blood pressure can raise, our breath can change, our muscle can become tense. I remember few years ago, I had awaken from a dream completely drained and exhausted.

Have you ever awaken while you where dreaming and founding yourself thinking : "thanks god that what just a dream ". But are you really awaken.

Here's the fascinating thing­. Even when we are "awake" we are still remaining in our mind all day long. We are living character created in our mind, we are judging everyone and everything around us in our mind, we are making scenario of hope and fear in our mind.

None of that is real, but it's still affect the physical body like when we are dreaming while we are asleep. The body respond to a real threat the same way that he respond to a threat we create in our mind.

When we look at this, we are not really awake. Since we are still in an imaginary world created in our mind, we are still dreaming. It seems to me that when we are asleep it's just another layer of that dream world we are creating in our mind. It's a dream in a dream.

When I look at the consequence of every human living in their dream world of self interest, what I realize is that the dream we have collectively created is a fucking nightmare.

So what's the solution. Since constantly living in our mind seems to be the issue. I guess that deconstruct the mind layer by layer is the solution so we can find our freedom again.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I was living in dream world created by my mind even when I am physically awake

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my dream world separate myself from what is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that living in dream world is increasing suffering on this planet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the physical world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am asleep, I am just in a deeper layer of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there's no escape. The only way out to that nightmare is to deconstruct the mind by walking a proven process. 

Day 23 : The astonishing liberation of living in equality

When I first heard about equality, it was just a mental concept for me.
I don't really see the point of living in equality, because in my mind equality was to become less that I was already was.

I haven't realize at that time, that this feeling of superiority was in fact an illusion created by the mind. It was just a character that was keeping me divided from other people.

At some point, I heard an audio from Bernard Poolman explaining that self-perfection was to move towards equality and not self-betterment.

That's when I realize that my path of Self-Betterman was just a trap. A trap that was only increasing my feeling of separation with other and therefore adding more suffering to this world.

How could I have been so blind.

That realisation, hit me to my core. That day, my perception of the entire world have completely shifted. Equality was not a mental concept anymore. I was becoming aware that I was in fact equal and one with every human being on this planet. With that new understanding, I realize that I am not more than anyone, and I am not less than anyone.

I am equal to greatest and most powerful human being on this planet.
I am equal to the worse human being on this planet.

Even if I can still catch myself judging other in my mind, I quickly realize that this judgement is totally inapropriate. There's no place for judgement in equality. Judgement can be transmute into compassion and support for other.

Understanding that I was equal with other, was one of the most incredible liberation, I have ever experienced Why ?

Because when you don't feel superior to anyone, you don't have nothing to lose. You don't have to protect that superior character, that is constantly threatened

When you stop feeling less than other, you can see that we are all equaly worthy.

When equality will be understood and lived by 7 billions peoples, the outcome can be nothing less than heaven on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-betterment was preventing myself to experience equallity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that being equal was meaning become less

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I don't live in equality, I will always be in inner conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I was more than other people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I was less than other people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that feeling less or more than other people is an illusion created by the mind experienced as a fake character.

I forgive myselt that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that equality is just common sense. 

Day 22: Blind to the obvious

When we stop for a second and we take the time to take a look at what's going on around us. We can clearly see the mess we are creating in this world. One of the biggest issues is that we keep lying to ourselve about it. Let's take pollution for example.

We are generated huge amount of waste every single day.
What are we doing with that waste ?We bury it into the grounds.

We clearly know that the majority of that waste will take thousands of years to decay.

Even if all know that very well, we keep producing more and more waste.

The population also keep increasing. 1 billion human have been added to the planet since the day I am born.

So more and more human are adding more and more waste, and we keep buries it into the grounds.

What do we all expect as a results of such a retard behaviour ?

Since we all have a tendency to denial, here's a clue, we are in our way to transform this planet into a huge dump.

That's only one concequence of the current money system that is based on competition.

Since there's no money to make to clean up that mess and find effective way to live without destroying the ecosystem that we are all reliant to, nobody wants to do it because we are all needing money to survive.

If you can't see how fucked this is, you have blind yourself to the obvious.

If the money system doesn't change, we will sooner or later face the concequence of our denial. Is that the legacy that we want to leave to our children ?

Not let's bring this one point further. Let's imagine, that reincarnation would exist. Would you like to came back on this earth and live into a guigantic dump?

Would you think, that since nobody have stand up to change that system, that we would may be deserve such a crappy destiny ?

We still have the opportunity to reverse the damage that we have create on this planet. We even have the opportunity to create heaven on earth.But if we want thing to change, we have to be willing to change.

And guess where the change start ?

The change start with yourself
The change start with myself
The change start with ourselve

We are all in the same boat.

It's collectively that we have create this mess, it's collectively that we will fix it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid the concequence of my action

I frogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to close my eye on the concequence that we have created in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing at the concequence of my action

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that inaction also create concequence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that standing up to change this system is not an option anymore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we all have to take responsiblity for the concequence that we have created individually and collectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that some people will stand up when they will see some people leading by example. Therefore one person can lead another person to lead themself by applying the simpliest equation 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt that this system can be change, when it fact it's obvious that it can be done one person at the time.