Day 56 : When you're lost, turn around to find your way back

When you walk in the forest during winter time, every step leave a footprint on the ground. If at some point you realize that you are lost, you have to turn around and start walking in reverse. At some point you will be back to where you are from and you won't be lost anymore. If you are lost and refuse to admit it, you can keep walking and walking and walking. But if you go in the wrong direction, you will be in a worse situation. By refusing to use common sense and walking in reverse, you will end up freezing to death.

That was of course a metaphor to introduce how easily we have lost in common sense.

We are all lost in our mind. We are thinking all day long. The thinking never stop, it started when we wake up, and stop when we fall asleep.

Unfortunately, the ego don't want to admit that we are lost, because he want to be right at all cost. That's the point where we forget to use our common sense.

If we would have common sense, we would stop and turn 180 degree and start walking in reverse until we reach the point where we are not lost anymore.

Instead of footprint in the snow, our mind have been imprinted by thought/emotion/feeling,  they all show us what step need to be ''walked in reverse''

We didn't always think, so what where we when we wasn't thinking? I guess that the only way to find out is to walk in reverse until I get there and see what remain.

In that sense, it's now clear that self-betterment is really only based on delusion, because it's all mind based. We can only be more than other in our mind, but in reality, we are all flesh and bones and are all physically equal. Fascinating that the concept of king and slave have become so real in our mind that we have manifest it in our physical existence. Pretty fucked up !

By trying to make myself better, I am only increasing the separation between me and other person. Fortunately, delusion is not sustainable and when we go to much further into our delusion, we have to face an inevitable crash where we loose everything( sounds like the story of jobs). If we survive this, we don't have any other option to start being self-honest and admit that delusion doesn't work very well. That's where can start to deconstruct the lie that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become by starting to walking in reverse.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-betterment is increasing the sense of separation between human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the polarity better/less have create huge amount of suffering on this planet, where people think that they are more deserving than other

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to give up self-betterment and start walking in reverse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the common sense of walking in reverse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing myself by deconstruction who I have become as mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a sense of identity to my thought/emotion/feeling

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the first step to find myself was first to admit that I was going into the wrong direction.

Day 55 : if you want to hide something put it in plain sight

If you want to hide something put it in plain sight

Everyone is trying to find what are the secrets of existence.

Fascinating all the crazy stuff that we can come up within our mind.

When someone say to me, my body is not real, the thought that came into my mind is : '' I wonder if they will still thinking that way when they will be in pain after I punch them in the face lol ''

There's also all the ''quantum thinker'' that explain me that the tree only exist because we create it with our mind. It's so curious that a person that is born blind will hit that tree if they walk into even if they couldn't even conceive what a tree look like.

Where do I want to go with that. People have become so obsess about trying to understand what reality is through their mind that they are not able to see what's in front of them anymore. For them the physical world is not real so they can do whatever they want without consequence. Unfortunately that kind of attitude have lead us is a pretty fucked up situation where people are dying from atrocious conditions.

It's right in front of us, how can we miss it. How dare we saying that our body is not fucking real lol.

When we think about it, we are limitless in our ability to create delusion in our mind.

It's kind of saying, that if I put green sunglasses, the entire world have become green when in fact we have put a filter between us and the world that change the way we perceive it.

Does perceptions is reality? Yeah, the reality of our little bubble we create in our mind not ''THE REALITY''. The ironic thing is that our mind is generated by our body, so the ego is kind of arrogant to pretend that the body that generate it is not real lol.

The real world is right in front of us, but we can't really see it because we are so fucking stuck in our mind.

Fuck you mind, I take a breath ( brake) from you

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every knowledge of what reality can't be trust, because knowledge only exist in the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my physical body wasn't real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thing that the physical world wasn't real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I could shape reality with my mind, when in fact, I only shape my perception of reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the real world is right in front of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I was more than the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am equal and one with everything in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to access to reality through thinking

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that breathing bring my back in the real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the consequence of only existing as a mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my identity by acknowledging my equality with everything that exist



When I find myself being lost in my thought, I stop and breath

I commit myself to stop any form of delusion