Day 68 : Absolute individuality

Who I am as absolute individual within the concept of what's best for all?

Let's look, at the physical body for an instant. Every cell are playing a role for the optimal functioning of our physical body. Every cell still have individuality, but they are program to do what's best for the body as a whole. If the cells would not operate in harmony, the physical body would collapse very rapidly.


It's fascinating, because nature show us a clear example of what's possible for us human if we would all operate in harmony within the context of what's best for all life. Unfortunately, the mind/ego will never allow it to happen.

So why should I stand as absolute individual. Does individual mean being separate from the rest of the world?. I mean, what about the merging into oneness and dissolving my identity? What about being one with god and all that stuff?

Here's how I see absolute individuality.

- I am my own leader. That doesn't mean that I cannot inspire myself from people that are more advance in their own individual process. That doesn't mean that I cannot take advice from another person or get an additional perspective but I am 100 % in charge of my own process. I am the directive principle of my life.

- I direct myself by principle, not emotion and feeling. Now that I understand where emotion and feeling come from, I also realize that I cannot used them as a way to direct myself. In order to always move into the right direction I need to direct myself by principle. Every action and words that I say must be align with those principles. There's many principle that I am using to direct my life, but the principle of what's best for all is the main one. I am aware that if I don't move toward that direction, I will always continue to create additional conflict within me.

- Taking absolute 100% responsibility for everything and anything. I must take responsibility for every action, emotion, feeling, words and thought. I must acknowledge the consequence of my action on the collective.

- I must Give as I would like to receive. The ego want to take as much as possible. Take take take... until nothing left. By creating a world where everybody can give as they would like to receive we restore the natural balance like every cell contribute to the entire body, but also have their own nutritional need met by that biological system.

- I must stay connected with people that are standing within the same principle. Individual doesn't mean that I must be alone. In fact the power in groups can be used to support me in my individual process. Nobody can do it for me. Alone it's easy for my mind to fucked with me. If I am in a group, other people can make me aware of certain that that I am not aware of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself enough to stand as an absolute individual

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate individuality with isolation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am alone in my process, but I can still benefits from the support of other people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek validation instead of standing as absolute individual


I commit myself to stand as absolute individual within the context of what's best for all

I commit myself to take responsibility for everything and never blame anything outside of me.

Day 67 : Together we stand, divided we fall

Recently I realize that when I stay connected with a group of like minded people it's so much easier to stay on track. It's when we isolate ourselves that become very easy for the mind, to screw us.

I thought for a long time that I can just ''do it on my own''. Now I can see that this point was in fact just ego. The mind always want to isolate his host so he can take the control over him. It's hard for the mind to take over his host, when he is communicate openly with another person.

Even if the process is something that is personal, without the support of other, certain points cannot be overcome. It's so clear now that I feel that I have waste many years of my life by refusing any form of support from other people.

If we want to stand up and create change into this system, we must stand up as a groups. Even those who had a massive impact in this world have surround themselves with a groups. Together we stand, divided we fall

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cut myself from other people support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thing that I can do it alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it's easy for the mind to take control if I am alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I don't have any time to waste, therefore I must stand within a like minded group so I can be as effective as possible within my process

Day 66 : The allegory of the cave, our preprogramming is the cave

In the Allegory of the cavern, the person that realize the ''truth'' of what the real world was try to go back in the cave and explain to them that the shadow that they are seeing on the wall wasn't the real world. He explain to them how awesome the real world was and explain to them how amazing it is when you are free from the illusion. The guy in the cave just fight him because they don't even have the ability to conceive that this could be true.

Ok so what's the point

The point is that this is a freaking great metaphor with our current situation on this planet.

Our mind is the shadow on the wall.Every thought/emotion/feeling that we have came from a preprogrammed design. It's not real.

The ''real world'' in the allegory is the physical. Our magnificent physical world that we are abusing everyday in order to feed the fantasy that we entertain in our mind for so long.

Desteni is the way to deconstruct the mind and to see what's real. As show in the allegory of the cavern, people will fight to stay into delusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not acknowledge the physical as real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to defend an illusion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing myself by acknowledging what's real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I cannot conceive outside the limit that I have accepted and allowed for myself

I commit myself realize what's actually real in this world

I commit myself to keep walking my process to deconstruct the mind(illusion) so I can see what's actually real.

Day 65: Keep going no matter what

We have a tendency to think that it's the events that stop us to do what we are supposed to do.
We used situations,events, circumstances as an excuse for not doing what we know what we should do.
Deep down, we know that we are lying to ourselves. We wait for those excuses we are almost looking for them.

Well, one thing that I end up realizing is that the circumstance are rarely in our favour. That is why we need to become the directive principle of our life. We have to keep moving in the right direction no matter what.

What really stop us at the end? Is that circumstance? No, at the end it's emotions and feelings that prevents us to do what we should do. It's our emotional reaction to the circumstance that keep us stock and not what's actually happening.Of course there's some exception to that. Some people are born in atrocious condition where they don't have the opportunity have any impact in this world, but the fact that we have access to internet is a good indicator that we have more than 99% of people on this planet. That alone, put us in a position where we can actually have enough to walk our own process and bring a change in this world through the equation 1+1=2.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed emotion and feeling prevent me from doing what I know I should do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT be the directive principle of my life when I have faced undesirable circumstance

I commit myself to become the directive principle of my life

I commit myself to realize that my emotion and feeling are coming from my preprograming, therefore, I can not trust them as a way to guide me to do what's best.

Day 64 : Different starting point for the same objective

A world that is Best for all, awesome let's do it
walk a 7 years process to get rid of all of my mental bullshit, sound awesome!
Vlog and blog myself out of hell and expose my process to the general public, cool !

Is wanting to do what is best for all is enough?

I was looking at 2 videos that was talking about our starting point. Consciously, we think that we are doing certain things for a reason. I mean what higher purpose could we have than wanting to create a world that's best for all.

As I was listening to those videos, I realize that in the depth of our unconscious mind could be hidden a totally different starting point that the one that we think we have.

Even the objective of creating a world that is best for all can came from the ego, and not from a space of realization that it is the best thing to do. The nature doesn't do what's best from the starting point of ego.

So where's the problem, if I do what's best anyway?

If the ego is still in charge, it will be impossible to bring real sustainable change anyway.

So do I need to change my objective? No, I just need to change my starting point.

Do I need to figure out every subconscious or unconscious desire right now ? No, it's a process

I don't need to understand everything right now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my starting point is not what I think it is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even doing what is best can have the ego as starting point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must have absolute clarity about my starting point in order to move foward

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my starting point will become more and more clear as I move forward in my process

Day 63 : Transmuting the anger into a greater level of responsibiity

As I observe our freedom being completely striped in order to supposedly '' protect'' us against a supposedly ''deadly'' virus that seems to only exist in people mind, I get a little bit pissed of.

Pissed off of people that are actually begging for having their freedom strip away because of fear
Pissed off of politician that doesn't give a fuck about what's in the best interest of people
Pissed off of everyone acting like completely brainwash zombie.
 etc.

At the end, what is the real reason why I am pissed of ?

It's really just, an emotion that is an actual reaction of thought that I have created in my mind.

I am creating those scenario in my mind and I react to it emotionally. That's kind of retard.

So what can I do?

Does that mean, that I will do nothing about the situation, knowing that what's actually happening is far from being in the best interest of all?

No that's the point. Being pissed off will not change anything to the situation. It's just my ego fucking with me.

So at the end, I am only pissed off of myself because I am not doing anything about the situation. How the fuck being sit and being pissed off will change anything.

So what can I do ?

The solution always remain the same. If I am not happy about the situation it' up to me to change it. It's my responsibility.

There's a reason why people can't see what I see and I know exactly what it is.

It just seems overwhelming when I think about the big picture, so where do I start.

It's time to go back to the basic: 1+1=2

What's the next person that is ready to get the red pill. That's what I need to focused on.

What pissed me off in this world is what I need to take responsibility to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel pissed off

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that something outside of me was pissing me off

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for what I can actually do instead of blaming what's outside of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel overwhelm

If I find myself being pissed of, I stop and breath

I commit myself to transmute my emotional reaction into practical action in the physical

I commit myself to be the change that I want to see in this world
  

Day 62: The architect in the matrix and the deception of the white light

For context listen to the movie the matrix 1 and 2.

I know it's just a movie, but it's a very great metaphor of the deception we are facing in our current world

In the movie The Matrix Morpheus is relying on the prophecy to direct all of his decision. He have a blind faith in NEO ( the one) that is supposed fulfill the prophecy and end the war between the man and the machine.

When Neo, open the door to fulfill his destiny, he is blinded by an intense white light. Then he met the architect ( The god of the matrix, the creator)

Unfortunately for Neo, God have a bad news for him. Everything was preprogrammed. Every single decision that he made was not his own. Even the famous moment when he chose the red pill wasn't his decision. The architect was the creator of the ultimate deception that was making sure that every human being remain a slave for their entire life.

Neo is devastated to hear the truth, and he his left with only one option if he want to save the human race : Absolute responsibility.

He must give up all hopes, and take charge himselves to end up the war between the man and the machine. It's only when he stop wishing that something external to him would do it for him that he put himselves in a position to do something about the situation.

There's another deception in the movie here, where the people are deceive into believing that a saviours will save everybody ( which is very common in hollywood movie) but that's not the purpose of this blog, so let keep that on the side for now.

Now let's look at our world

We are doing the same fucking thing. Everybody hope, pray, wish that some kind of external force will fix the problems of this planets. Does it really matter who the architect is ? When we take a look at what we are currently experiencing, we can clearly see that it's our collective agreements that allow a system of suffering to perpetuate on this planet.

It's only by taking full responsibility for our life, that we can actually fix the situation. We cannot hope that ''something'' or '' some force'' will came to save us.

There's no GOD coming to do it for us
There's no Jesus coming on a cloud
There's no amount of love ( as a feeling) that will magically fix the system
There's no prayer that will solves anything.

Like in the matrix, all prophesy, God, White light, Love and light, Hope etc. was really just a part of a bigger deception to keep us so distracted that we can never found out what's really going on.  


We have to take responsibility for the consequence that we have collectively created. Unfortunately there's no ''the one'' it's either all of us or none of us.

When 7,5 billions of people will take absolute responsibility for their life, we will have a completely different world. But it's all start with those that actually have a chance to do something about it. We cannot expect a starving children in Africa to change the world. Only 1% of the world earn more than 30 000$ US / years. If you are in that categories, you have enough to be a part of the solution.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the system is maintain in place by human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect that an external source would do it for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't have the ability to bring change in the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am in the 1 % of this world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to acknowledge my active participation in a system that create abuse and suffering

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear the system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed programming that supress my individual reponsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity of the 1+1=2 equation