Day 15: Being normal in world that is completly fucked is being fucked

Have you ever been in a country where the culture is completely different?

I did, and there's one thing that I notice. Some of the thing that they are doing does make any sense. Anybody that have common sense, would not live their life that way.

So why can't they not see that what they are doing is completely fucked?

The reason is because they are born in that culture. Their belief system have been shaped by their culture. The reason I was able to see it was because I was from another culture. The problem with that is that I had assume before that in my country we was not fucked, because I was shaped into that culture.

The problem with culture and beliefs system is that they are not based on reality. It's just a fucked up brainwashing that we are downloading in the first 7 years of our life. And since we are born in it, we can not see how fucked this is.

So how do we know, what is fucked, and what is not ?

Very simple, use common sense. Beliefs are not based on common sense. They are irrational.

If our world would be based on common sense, we would not have war
If our world would be based on common sense, we would not have poverty
If our world would be based on common sense, Every human being would have access to basic needs like clean water, shelter and food
If our world would be based on common sense, it would not be based on competition
If our world would be based on common sense, we would not depleted and polluted the ecosystem that is require to keep us alive
Etc.


So the fact is that we have given up our common sense in the name of belief and the results of this is a world that is completely fucked.

So now, if you want to be normal and conform yourself to this world, you are fucked
If you play the game of the anti-conformist punk, you are equally fucked, because you are still separating yourself from other.

So what's the way out. How could we unfucked ourselves.

Knowing that we are fucked is a great step forwards. Many people are dying without realize that simple evidence.

Then we need to find a basic point to fix our world that everyone would agree too.

Let's bring back life into the equation and bring a world that is best for all

Everyone that would not agree with that is so much brainwash with their delusional believe system that they don't have common sense anymore.

They have brainwash themselves to believe that their life was more valuable than another human being life. This is completely fucked

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that conform myself to a world that is fucked, is being fucked

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the current system in place do not value life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the belief system that I have accepted and allowed must be change at all cost, if I want to be in a position where I support life and the creation of a world that is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is my responsibility to free myself from that belief system by using the proven tool

I commit to the best of my ability to devote my life, bringing a world that is best for all.

Day 14 : Imagine-nation

We all have heard about the astonishing power of the imagination.
This trend have been very profitable for those who have amplify this movement and make profit from it as  explain in the documentary the century of the self. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eJ3RzGoQC4s)

The issue here, is that people are going very far about creating image in their mind to generate feeling at such extent that they are in complete denial of relativity.

Nobody is here anymore, everyone is in their mind, generating image of hope, faith, fear, love etc.

We have become an imagine-nation

Since image are not real, we have become a very fucked up nation .

Those who are doing mass marketing know exactly how your imagination work and they purposely put the image they want you to believe so they can extract every single dollar your make in your lifetime from you.

It's all explain in great detail in the documentary mention above, but most people will not take the time to listen to it, because they don't have the vocabulary to understand it, therefore they will think it's boring.

The consequence of this imagine-nation that we have become are huge. We are now facing real problem, on this planet and most people are not willing to stand up because they are to busy imagining an ideal world in their mind instead of do something for real here in the physical world we are all living in for REAL.

While we fuck our mind with our imagination, people are dying all around the world in horrible condition. Hunger, raped, violence, murder, disease etc.

All those thing could be dramatically reduce and even eliminate overtime, if we would all stand up and support each other to create a better world instead of giving away our power to an external authority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that imagination was the key to access my potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that imagination is creating a disconnection between me and reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that using my imagination without considering what is best for all is creating more misery and chaos on this planet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that imagination is the product of the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to escape the reality through imagination.

Day 13 : The fear of being exposed

I was pondering about this concept. What if every single thing that we have done in our life would be exposed to every single person to the word? What if every single thought we have would be exposed to everyone? What if every single person in this world could have access to every e-mail that you wrote, every text that you sent, every phone conversation that you had? How would you feel about that idea of being totally exposed. Really think about that. Every single time you had a horrible thought about another person, she would know it. We all have"secret" that we would like to stay "secret", and this is not without consequence. Because to hide those secret that we are ashamed of, we have to create a mask that will suppress our true self for the rest of our life. This is completely fucked. If we would live in a world that is best for all, we could support each other to overcome guilt, judgment, fear, shame etc. Unfortunately in a world that is based on competition, everyone is afraid exposing themselve because the"enemies" that could use that against you. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide felling/thought/emotion/past action from other

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being exposed

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself because of shame

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself because of guilt

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to

suppress myself because of fear of being rejected

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when you have nothing to hide, you don't have any fear

 I commit myself to be more open

 

 I commit myself being more authentic

Day 12 : Breaking the chain of insanity

We all know what's require to create a world that is best for all. So why are we not creating it ?
Because most of us are insane.
There's an old Chinese proverb that define insanity as : Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.

Few years ago, I have read this quote in the book the power of now from Eckhart Tolle :

“Humans have learned to split the atom. Instead of killing ten or twenty people with a wooden club, one person can now kill a million just by pushing a button. Is that real change?”

I remember that this make lot of sense to me. How could we have not figure out a way to even stop killing each other in couple thousands of years of existence? 

It's probably because we have never take the time the investigate where this violence was coming from.

Unfortunately, this violence is in everyone of us. Anger, frustration, fear, confusion etc. Why are we have such resistance within us. We have see trough time that positivity is not the answer. Generally it's use as a band-aid to mask that pain within us. And how could we have that positivity if negativity would not exist ? That's the endless trap of polarity we have put ourselves too. Does polarity would still exist in a world that is best for all ?

That's when I realize that in order for the world to change, every person have to take responsibility for their inner change. If the change is real, even one single person that change will change all of the generation below them. Because they have take responsibility for breaking the chain of insanity, they will not download all their violence in their children and condemn them to perpetuate the endless cycle of misery. 

 How do we eat an elephant ? One bite at the time 

How do we change the world that is best for all? One person at the time

How can a person get rid of all the programming that prevent them to become a person that support life ? One program at the time, by using proven process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that looking at the misery in the world, was distracting me to see the misery inside myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the first step is to break the chain of insanity within me, if I want to become effective to create real change in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no real change can occur if we don't address the root cause of the problem

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the root cause of the problem is within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to no realize that if the root cause of the problem of this world is within me, I am the only person that can bring the solution for myself by walking a proven process.

  

 

Day11: When the computer start to think that he is the program.

Let's imagine that the mind would be like a super computer totally programable.
Now let's immagine that the program that we are installing in that computer is installed during the first 7 years of our life.
Now let's imagine that the programmer are not even aware that they are run by program because they have been program in a way that their program take all their attention so they have came to believe that the program is them.
So instead of programming, effectively the super computer of their child so they can value life and move foward to create a world that is best for all, they would only dump all their programs of fear and survival in that super computer.
When the programmind is done after 7 years, the child is convince that he is the programs that  he is program with.
There's many name for program.
Name, culture, nationality, race, identity  etc.

Let's immagine that our programing is totally fucked and lead us to perpetuate destructive behaviour for ourselve, other and our environnement.
If we have come to believe that we are those programs,
That's mean we are fucked.

The solution seems simple. Just realize that we are not  thoses programs and we are free to do whatever we want. Or like all those spiritual teacher preach, just be present.

Unfortunately it's not that simple. Since it's take 7 years to tottally fucked ourselve, it will take a while to unprogram all the junk we have accepted and allowed as true.

That's what belief is all about. programs that we have accepted and allowed

Beliefs are always root in doubt. Since we have no certainty about it, we will try to protect them. We would rather die than being wrong.

That's completely fucked.

Now let's imagine that we would have the tool to deprogram yourself, would you do it ?

In many case this answer is no, because we think we are those program, so ending them would mean cease to exist.

This is completely fucked too 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to think that thought/emotion/feeling was who I am

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that deprogram myself is a process and can take up to 7 year, if I am consistent

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that me as a program, has in fact always been the real programmer since I had to accept and allow program from my environement to become a part of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that since I have always been the programmer, I can start deprogramming myself from anything that prevent me from living as equal and in consideration of what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that taking 100 % responsibility for our life mean that we cannot blame anyone for our programming, since WE have accepted and allowed it.

Day 10 : There's no saviour

Hollywood seems to have make a good job to brainwash the mass so they can believe in some kind of saviour that will fix everything for them.

The pattern in the movie is always the same. While the super hero, the mutant, or the one is doing all the job, all other people are powerless to save this world.

May be this is the reason why people have start to think that it was the responsibility of their politic leader to bring the change on this planet.

Some are even more delusional and think that Jesus will came back and save us...

What the fuck is wrong with us ? 

That bullshit is just another tactic for denying our responsibility.

There's no ONE ( NEO)  that is coming to save us, since we are ALL ONE, we all have our part of responsibility to bring the change in this world.

The problem is that very few people want that world to change.

Many people are very good pretender. They talk about changing the world all the time, but their action does not reflect what they say.

This is why a process is so vital to create change. A message without a process will always remain a message.

The message of Jesus to love thy neighbour as thyself was good stuff, but unfortunately without a process, the message have remain a message. When we look at how many people that have been killed in the name of God, we can see that we have clearly missing the point. 

Eckhart Tolle have done a great job to explain to people that we was not our mind. Unfortunately, he did not have a specific process to walk to strip away their ego. So the message remain a message. No real change in this world have occur by his teaching and the vast majority of his follower end up lost and confuse. There's also the aspect of vocabulary, but that's for a later topic

Since there's no saviour, what are we gonna do ? We have to be our own saviour, it's that simple. In fact we are the only one that can save ourselves. How could we have been blind to such simplicity? 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am the only person that can save myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can not save anybody else, I can only lead them to save themselves by inspiring them by my example

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a real leader is not the one that have the most follower, a real leader is the one that create the most self-leader. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt in my ability to lead myself and inspire other to lead themselves

Day 9: hope and faith as denial of responsibility

faith and hope are basically thinking that some force external to you can fix things for us on a individual and on a collective level. This is bullshit.

What is remaining when we give up all hope and faith?

Absolute responsibility.

With that new understanding came the comprehension that praying is basically dening our self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take 100% responsibility for everything in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that faith and hope are a way to escape responsibility 

I commit myself to give up all hope and faith

Day 8 : The CULTure as the real cult

Before we start, lets define the word cult :

[ C ] a religious group, often living together, whose beliefs are considered extreme or strange by many people:

Their son ran away from home and joined a religious cult.

​

[ C ] a particular system of religious belief:

the Hindu cult of Shiva 

If you remove the religious aspect, a cult is nothing more than a system of beliefs. Here's the interesting part. Our society is based on belief systems, therefore our society could be define as cult. And when we take a serious look at what we are doing as a society, those beliefs system are extreme.The only reason it does not seems strange by many people, is because we are born in that belief system. 

One way that's very effective to become aware of the cult of our society ( CULTure) is to go in another country where the CULTure is completely different. When I went to India, I was blown away to see that they was worshipping all those different gods. I was even more blown away when one of the guy there explain me that their god was physiologically different. He explain me that they was bigger than human being and that I could see the skull if I would go to a specific museum in that area. In my mind, their god was a myth, not being that has actually exist. The point is that it seems that those giant have a very specific plan for the people over there, because they was following a very limiting system of beliefs. To me that belief system was not making any sense. This was the point when I seriously start questioning the beliefs system in my own country. 

What I realize is that our belief system was completely fucked 

- Our education system was making us dumb

- Our health-care system was making us sick

- Our law system was making us more restraint

- Our food industry was making us sick as well

- Our money system was making us poor ( look at the inflation in the last 10 years) 

-etc. 

 Why do we think that all of this is normal ? 

Because we are born in it. 

To clearly understand this concept, you must watch the allegory of the cavern 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQfRdl3GTw4  

 We accept thing as they are because we know nothing else. that's the main issue here. How can we initiate some change and create a world that is best for all, when people just want to stare at some fucking shadow on the wall. What do you got in your living room that you stare at for hours. A kind of fake images generators... it's call a t.v. !!! 

That's the real cult. The society we are living in. The word cult is always use as a way to discredit anything that is outside what's currently accepted as normal. The problem is that what's currently accepted as normal is nothing less than an abomination. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the culture is the real cult, since it's based on a system of beliefs created to enslave people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of things that was identify as cult by society, when in fact, the society itself is a cult that protect his own illusion by pointing out things that potentially threaten the belief system of the society itself that is based on the faith of the people that participate in that society. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every beliefs is rooted in doubts and are not real, therefore, the goal is not to find the best belief system. The goal is to find the best system to get rid of my beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I perceive as normal can be in fact very detrimental for myself and other, therefore, I should always use " what is best for all" as a measure to see if what I am doing is the best thing to do.

Day 7 : Image are not real

Before you read that post, if you are on facebook, I encourage you to stop reading, go on your facebook feed and scroll for a few minutes. What are you seeing?

You are seeing image and picture of some kind of ideal.

- Picture of a person smilling
- Picture of a happy baby
- Picture of a happy family
- Picture of a person smilling while they are traveling.
- Picture of an happy marriage
- Picture of the last new car that a person get

Even if there's nothing wrong with that. There's in nothing real with that as well and when we start brainwashing ourselves with those images, and start shooting for that ideal that does not even exist, that's the moment when thing are getting terribly wrong.

Behind the person smiling picture, there's struggle, pain, inner turmoil, fear, etc.
Behind the happy baby picture there's the real life of parenting ( The baby that 's crying all the time, the night of insomnia etc.)
Behind the happy family, there's huge amount of conflict and unresolved issues etc.
Behins the picture of the person who travel, there's struggle, security control in the airport, lack of sleep, fear created by the new environment
Behind the picture of the happy marriage, there's all the up and down of a relationship, the fear of losing the love of the other person, fear of routine etc.
Behind the picture of the new cars, there's often huge debts attach to it that create all kind of struggle.

The point is that none of those picture reflect the reality. And because our imagination is so powerful, if we think that those picture presented to ourselves are real, we start thinking that we need those thing to be happy.

How fucked this is ?

If you think that those images are not affecting you, think about this.

Why does Mcdonald's revenue in 2018 was $21.025B ?
Does the food in Mcdonald is good ?



When you look at the fact, you realize that the food in Mcdonald's is loaded with massive doses of chemicals that damages the brains.

Every single person that I know that eat in that restaurant told be that they feel like crap every time they are eating there.

So in reality, it does make any sense to go there and eat that crap, but unfortunately in your mind, images and pictures override reality.

This is what Mcdonald is, an image.  Guess why they spend billions of dollars in marketing ? They do this so they can create an image in your mind that will override your common sense.

I am sure that some people read this blog, and just by reading the name Mcdonald, you have image that are popping up into your mind. Where those image come from ?


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself with image

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let image distract myself from reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let image create fake desire within me and control my reality

I commit myself to investigate and live what is real

I commit myself to see behind the bullshit that is presented through image.

Day 6 : There's no way out

In face of a problematic situation, we only have 3 options
1.Accept it
2. Escape from it
3. Change it

What is the current situation?

In case you didn't notice everything is absolutely fucked in this world

Our healthcare system make us sick
Our educational system make us dumb
Our food industries make us hungry and fat
Our media uninformed us
Our bank make us broke

What a mess!

So let's take a look at the option that we have.

1. Accept it : Well, to accepted a system that is completely fucked we need to be as fucked as this system. In another word a person need to be completely brainwash to even consider accepting a system like this. Unfortunately, this is not an option since if we keep in that direction, we are moving toward our own extinction. 

2. Escape from it...
Unfortunately, we can not withdraw ourselves from the system, since that very system keep us alive. The greatest example of this is christopher mccandless( the movie Into the wild decribe his biography) who have realize that the system was completely fucked and making him miserable. His solution was to go to live in Alaska, alone in the bush. Unfortunately, the nature does not really care about his imaginary fantasy about how great it would be alone in Alaska. He end up being trap and end up dying by eating some poisoned root. When we look at one of the last thing he wrote in his book, we can clearly see that he died in regret : "happiness only real when shared". There's another form of escape and it's to become a complete delusionner. Let make this clear, hope, faith, praying and positive thinking, will not take care of the system. Unfortunately, we can not escape from it. THERE'S NO WAY OUT !

3. Change it. That's the only option remaining and this is what we need to do. We have been in denial for so long... it's time to change that. It's time to take responsibility for the mess we collectively accepted and allowed. How do we change a system? First we have to change ourselves by using the proven tool to deal with our own internal turmoil. If we are constantly in conflict within us, we will created more conflict outside of us. Unfortunately, positive thinking, hope and prayer are just band-aids that are masking the pain within you. The change have to make internally but also externally. One of the main reason why this system is so fucked up is because of a money system based on competition that does not value life. What are the results of this : War, conflicts, violence, destruction of ecosystem, pollution etc.

We need to bring life back into the equation. Life is the only value we have on this planet and we abuse it in all possible way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I can escape the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there's no way out. If we don't change this system, we are screwed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that together we stand, divided we fall

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that trying to withdraw myself from the system is being a fucking cowards that does not have the guts to face the consequence of what I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that hope and faith are doing nothing to change this system since it remove responsibility from me.

I commit myself keep deconstruct the layer of my mind so I can move toward equality more and more everyday

I commit myself to associate with people that are sincere about creating tangible change in this world

Day 5 : Equality vs Self-bettermen

The first time I heard about creating a world of equality, it almost feel threatening to me. Why? because I was brainwashing myself with self betterment since so long that I have become blind from the most obvious evidence.

Self-Betterment is about increasing the illusion I  can become better than another person. Since we are all one, that kind of bullshit is just increasing the feeling of separateness and therefore lead to internal chaos and miserable existence.

The opposite side is also true, feeling that I am less than another person also increase the feeling of separation, and lead me to an horrible existence.

There's another aspect to this. In order for me to be better, another one have to be less. So not only by making myself better, I have to make other feel that they are less. This is insane!

How could I have the arrogance to think that my life has more value than any other human being life.

The cure to insanity is equality 

If it's true that we are all one, this mean :

Everyone life is equally valuable
Nobody is superior or inferior to any other
Nobody is more deserving than another

So the real personal development is not about building myself , it's a removal process. Remove the layer of the mind that prevent me to live that equality with all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that self betterment was the way to have an impact on this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear equality and had the  belief that equality would be limiting, when in fact what we could accomplish as humanity would be limitless if we would all working together to the best of everyone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand for equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for being judge/rejected/criticized for standing for equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-perfection is not about becoming a better person, it's about moving myself towards equality by using the proven tool and process until I live it in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value my life more than other human being life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my self-interest cut myself from life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that if we are all one, a world that is best for all is just common sense.

 

Day 4 : Free to chose hell

In this post we will explore the subject of choice.
We as human have come to believe that free choice was the ultimate gift, therefore making us the superior species on this planet.
Unfortunately, We have become so delusional that we didn't realize that this free choice is far from being the nice picture of unlimited potential we have been brainwash with.
At the end, every choice we had could be reduce to 2 choices. Here's fews ways to express those choice :

Oneness, separation
Best for all, self interest
Reality,Illusion

The first choice apply collectively would bring heaven on earth,
The second choice apply collectively would bring hell on earth,

Just look at the amount of suffering that we have collectively created on the planet and you will know what choice we have made collectively so far.

There's 10 children that have died of hunger since I started writing this blog
Each year, an estimated 18 billion pounds of plastic waste enters the world's ocean from coastal regions but we keep producing it massively
Around 18 million of people of people that are dying from hearth disease every years and the big companies keep pushing junk food and cigarettes. Do you know that animal do not have hearth attack? 

I could keep going, this is just the tip of the iceberg of the atrocity we are collectively creating with our "amazing gift" of free choice. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I don't really have free choice since my choice is determine by my mind programming and that programming is determine by my environment in the first 7 years of my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that free choice is at the end about choosing what is best for all or choosing self-interest. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I don't really have free choice since I have already make that choice

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to be able to choice what is best for all, I have to deconstruct all the layer of the mind that force me to chose self-interest/survival/fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted end and allowed myself to not realize that the story of Adam and Eve was the story of the beginning of free choice and the starting point of all suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the law of polarity is in fact just a collective agreement sustain by the fact that we can chose something else than what is best for all(like nature is doing for every living thing on this planet)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to eliminate suffering that is created by the polarity good/bad is to created a world that is best for all. 

I commit myself to stop and breath when I found myself choosing self interest
I commit myself use the tool that have been proven to work to deconstruct the layer of my mind
I commit myself to the best of my ability to contribute to the creation of a world that is best for all
 

Day 3 : Denial is the most predictable of all human responses

For context, listen to scene of the architect from the trilogy the matrix

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHZl2naX1Xk


When Neo discover that Zion is about to be completely destroy his reaction was : Bullshit!

To this the Architect answer that denial is the most predicable of all human responses.

It's just a movie....

Unfortunately, when we look around us, we can realize that denial is the choice that 99,9% of the people are choosing to live.

We are destroying our eco-system
We are polluting the water, the air, the ground
We have base our economy on petrol a limited ressource
We spend our day staring on a fucking phone or tablet
Human relationship are more dysfunctional than ever.
Everyone is more stressed than ever
Everyone is more sick than ever
There's toxic poison in our food
Everybody live in a constant state of fear
 etc.

 And the bad news is, that everything is getting worse and worse.

We are in a mess! The most logical thing to do would be to acknowledge it and DO the corrective action so we can fix the mess.

But nobody want to take responsibility for this mess that we have all collectively created.

We are so trapped in our fucking world of self interest that we rather close our eye on the fact that we are on our way to our own destruction.

What kind of legacy are we gonna leave for the children of this world if we don't stand up and take responsibility to fix this mess. Just by looking at what we done on the last 50 years, this give us a great idea of what the planet will look like in 100 years.

Nothing is gonna change until we take responsibility to change it. The leader of this world will not lead the change since they are making billions of dollars from this mess.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that denial is not an option anymore

I forgive myself that I have accepted  and allowed myself to not stand up in every opportunity that I had to do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my mind direct my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to be in denial

I commit myself to keep my eye open and face the atrocity we have created in this world

I commit myself to investigate every action that I am doing to see if they are driven by self-interest.

Day 2: we don't fix a flat tire with positive thinking and prayer

How a person respond when they realize that they have a flat tire on their car.
the person is fully aware that something wrong is going on, he slow down carefully, put the vehicle to the side of the road and he take the tool and the spare tire in the trunk of the car. And replace the flat tire. Now that the problem is fixed, they go back on the road and keep their journey.

Now imagine this senario. My tire blow out, instead of stopping the car, I keep rolling on the flat tire and start thinking positively and I pray god. I don't want to focus on what I don't want the flat tire. So I keep rolling and visualize the tire as fixed. Then I make an accident, crash and die.

In the first scenario, I become aware that something wrong was going on, I fix it and keep my journey.

In the second senario, I am in complete absolute denial of the problem and I give away my power to some outside power and end up dying.

Why this is important. It's important because we as humanity are applying the second scenario with our current system.

Nothing work. Everything is fucked, and what are we doing. We think positively and we are praying for thing to get better. How fucked we are ?

And we wonder why we are facing challenge right now on this earth. We are facing challenge, because we refuse to stop when we got a flat tire. And very soon, we will crash and all die if we don't start doing something about what's going on this planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that prayer and positive thinking would fix the problem of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that positive thinking is a form of denial and suppression that lead over time to suffering for the individual and the collective

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that positive thinking and being delusional is the same fucking thing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prefer an imaginary world created in my mind instead of what's is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an attitude of denial


I commit myself be more authentic and real with people

I commit myself to face my inner suffering instead of supressing it with positivity

I commit myself to forgive myself for the suffering that I have created for myself

I commit myself to forgive myself for the suffering that I have created for other

I commit myself to operate from a space of stability instead of a space of polarity

Day 1: Self honesty as the red pills to life

After investigating, everything the mind has to offer, I had to face it I was miserable, frustrated. If it's true that every path lead to Rome, I can now by my own experience say that every path of the mind lead to misery.

This intense suffering, lead me to my first real moment of self-honesty. Everything that I have done in my life was worthless. I was still a slaved in a completely fucked system and I was as fucked than the system that I was living in since I was keep playing the same game. I was seeing everyone around me keep playing the game of character, and I myself was keep playing some character because of fear of being judge/criticized/rejected. How fucked is that ?

We all know that scene of the matrix where Neo always had the feeling that everything was fucked in the world he was living in. Everyone around him was nothing more than living program in a completely fucked system. The worst part is that even if he was aware that everything was fucked, he still have to play the game to survive. He still need to go to his job, earn a living, be a hacker in the evening. Live in constant fear that he could be catch.

One day, A guy came in contact with him and offer him the famous choice. The red pill or the blue pills.

The blue pill : You go back in your fucked world and stay fucked for the rest of your life.

The red pill : You learn the truth about the fact that the matrix is just an illusion generated by their mind, but you also realize that the "real world" is a hard pill to swallow. A world dominated by machine who use human to generate energy to survive.

I found that this was a great metaphor of the choice I had to make in that moment of realize that I was participating in world that was completely fucked. In my case the choice was looking like this.

The blue pill : Denial  ( Stay a slave of my mind for the rest of my life)

The red pill: Self honesty ( Start applying self-forgiveness and deconstruct the layer of my mind that I have build over-time)

Like in The Matrix, the red pill was far from being a nice picture. When I choice to keep my eye open and take an honest look of what we as human being was creating huge amount of abuse to us, each other, the animal kingdom, the eco-system, the planet and within me. How could I have stay in a state of delusion for so long.

The most hard thing  for me to see was not to realize what was going on, it was to realize that most people have no intention to do anything about it, because they was in denial like I was.

It was far from being the light/love picture.

There's an interesting scene in the matrix where one of the character chose to forget everything and being reintegrated in the Matrix and forget everything as he is eating a juicy steak. He chose the pleasure of the mind instead of facing the reality and contribute to the liberation of his species.

Will I make the same mistake? No I won't. I have seen where the path of the mind is leading, I don't want to go back there. It's time for me to face the reality of the miserable world we have collectively created by living in our mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a Self-Loser and not realize that I can not withdraw myself from the system. Therefore the only way that is remaining to me is to contribute to change it for a system that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become A Self-Illusioner and try to fit in a system that suck the life out of every living thing on this planet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a Self-Delusionner and walk a path of self betterment without realizing that creating the illusion that I was becoming a better person was in fact increasing my feeling of separation, therefore cutting myself from life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a self justifier and think that I was deserving more than other human being because of mental self-justification that was based on illusion not reality.

I commit myself to start walking my path in self honesty and start removing all the accumulated layer of my mind, by being self-honest and using self-forgiveness.

I commit to walk a path of self-perfection towards equality, and give the concept of self bettermen

I commit myself to stop the character within me, that prevent me from contributing in a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to honnor and value life.

I commit myself to give up faith and hope and take absolute responsibility for my individual experience and the role I play in the collective.