Day 46 : addiction as a way to escape from the mind

I have always find myself being incredibly judgmental towards people that are smoking cigarettes.
What I haven't realize at that time, is that while I am judging, I was not facing my own challenge with addiction.

Every addiction have all the same purpose. It's a way to feel a relieve from the mind.

In my particular case, I was getting drunk every single weekend, because this was allowing me to release the stress created and accumulated by my mind during the week. Until someone point it to me, I have never realize that this addiction was having huge consequence on my life.

Resisting the uncontrollable urge to fall into addiction, would allow me to face the resistance that's coming up instead of run away from it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every addiction is detrimental

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that addiction are just a way to escape the pain that's created by the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let addiction take control over my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that addiction is just a way to postponing the pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I would be less without the addiction that I have accepted and allowed to become a part of my life.