Day 44: Giving up all hope

The title seems very depressive and pessimistic, but it's in fact a message of empowerment.

First let's take a look at the word hope

hope

noun

noun: hope; plural noun: hopes

1.

a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen.

 

The problem with hope, is that we are relying on outside circumstance in order to fix the problems. In another word, when we say I hope, we basically say : I am not willing to do it myself so I expect that the other person will do it at my place. 

Hope is not without consequence. In fact a person that rely on hope is under control, because you cannot be in charge of your life and be in a state of hope at the same time. It's a deep issue when we really think about it. When we are in hope we give up our authority ( AUTHORity). On a individual level, that's mean that we let someone else be the author of our life. Who want that ? 

When we really see hope for what it is. We can clearly see that hope is incredibly detrimental for the world. It's not by any chance that religion have massively promote hope. By selling hope to people, they was able to maintain control. If every person of this planet give up hope, they lose the control that is maintained by hope.

 

Even if religion system are falling apart, the programming of hope is still very present. 

 

In order to increase our level of responsibilty, we must give up all hope.

 

What people will start doing when they will have give up hope ? they will start acting and moving toward the solution. They will take individual responsibility. They will stop blaming outside circumstance for what's happening into their life. They will become more effective within the system. They will free themselve from the mental torture created by hope. 

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that hope is bullshit

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that hope is something that have been programmed into my dna in the first 7 years of my life

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have hope

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could be responsible for my life and have hope.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the suffering that's created by having hope

 

I commit myself to give up all hope

 

I commit myself to rely on responsibility instead of hope 

 

 

Day 43: Feel good in the process of doing the right things.

Everybody is trying to feel good.

It’s not that there’s something wrong about feeling good.

The problem is when we start denying what’s happening around us in order to feel good.

Denial is just a way to postpone consequences.

In fact all consequences keep accumulating while we are in denial.

At the some point, everything explode in our face. At this moment many people will try to find what outside force is responsible for their misfortune. They blame that life is unfair, that it’s everybody’s fault. Very few people are willing to take 100% responsibility. Unfortunately there’s no other way out.

By acting this way a person can feel good for a while, but it’s just a quick fix. 

Therefore, what I found from my own experience is that when I acknowledge the misery that’s all around me, and I work towards a solution that consider everybody. I do feel really good in the process. Even if Confronting everything that I have accepted and allowed is sometimes very uncomfortable, deep down I have a good feeling within, because I know that I move towards equality, .

In other words, I feel good in the process even if some stage of the process make me feel like crap for a moment, because I know I am doing the right things.

Feeling good in doing the wrong things will never create lasting effects because, if you deny your connection with everyone and everything, you are denying yourself. Therefore, what make you feel good today will make you sad tomorrow. This is just the natural cycle of polarity. You can pretend that gravity doesn’t exist, but the gravity doesn’t care about your opinion. It’s gonna crush you on the ground if you jump from a building. If you are aware of the consequences, you are smart enough to not jump from a building. One of the main problem we have is that people are not even able to see the consequences of what they are doing anymore. That’s why a drastic change in education is required.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for the unpleasant things that have happened to me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing the consequences of what I did 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to feel good without considering how reality operate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that trying to feel good without considering other, is just increasing misery on this planet 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it’s perfectly o.k. to feel good in the process of moving towards equality.

Day 42 : 8 stage of the process part 8 of 8 ( Self-Here)

For context listen to the 8 stage video .

The last stage of the process is the stage of self-here.

Since I am far from being there, so since I can't not even conceive what that stage look like, I cannot really explain it.

From what understand, a person that reach that stage have a complete clarity and understanding about how reality does operate. Those are the person that I can take guidance from since I am still walking my process. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my understanding of reality is limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it's not through the mind that I will access a greater understanding.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my mind is in fact what keep me separate from life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I could achieve that state without having to walk the proven process to deconstruct the consciousness/mind system that prevent me to see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt about the benefits of walking this process for me and all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every human being are in one of those 8 stage, and understanding where they are will help me to have compassion and support them effectively.

Day 41 : 8 stage of the process part 7 of 8 ( Self-perfector)

for context, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA&t=430s

Once you reach that state of nothing. Being here as breath.

At that stage a person start to apply equality in their daily. A person start to understand, their role in this life.


I am clearly not there yet ( Let's be self-honest lol ), But this make lot of sense to me. At that points I can see the multiple stage of the process unfolding overtime.

The illustration that came to my mind is that we spend our entire to build a building that is not only falling apart, but also destructive for everything around him( that would represent self-interest). Let's take a nuclear plant where radioactive material are leaking all around. There is no way to fix that building, since the conception itself was wrong since the very beginning.)

The first 5 stages would be the construction of that building of self-interest

The stage 6 ( 7 years process) would be the deconstruction of that building ( self-honesty, self-forgiveness, self, correction)

The stage 7: Now that the building of self-interest have been destroy and the area completely clean, we now have a clean slate to build something new. Since we have a clearer understanding of what's needed ( Something that is best for all). We can start building accordingly. This building will provide value for the world ( anything that will contribute physically to a world that is best for all).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to become effective to contribute to world that is best for all, I must remove every layer of the mind that maintain me in self-interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the 8 stage process is base on common sense

I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even if the process take time, it's o.k. As long as I start moving in the right direction NOW

Day 40 : 8 stage of the process part 6 of 8 ( self realizer)

For context listen to the video 8 stage of the process https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA

In the video Bernard explain that the self-realizer is the point where a person realize that there's a problem and they have to do self-correction. It's the begining of a 7 years process of walking in reverse and apply self-forgiveness and self-correction.


After spending dozens of years in the 5 first stage, it's almost a liberation to finally enter in a step where I can start deconstruct the lie I have created and maintain during all those years.Of course it's not necessarily agreeable to face the lies that I have created within me over all theses years, but I can clearly see the necessity of it. Once you've take the red pill, you cannot go back in the delusion. Since there's no way to go back, lets move toward the real by deconstructing the layers of the mind one by one.It's time to take 100% responsibility for the misery I have create for myself and other by remaining into denial during my 5 first stage. It's time to be self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to other

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no change is possible without self-honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it gonna take time to deconstruct the layer of the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a life based on self-interest is create suffering for myself and other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to bring a world that is best for all, I must deconstruct everything within me that is not align with that purpose

Day 39 : 8 stage of the process part 5 of 8 ( Self-justifier)

For context listen to the audio 8 stage of the process (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA&t=179s)

In this blog we will take a look of the stage of the self-justifier.

At this stage a person can start seeing that something wrong is going on in this world, but they justify their free will. The concept of a world that is best for all is still a threat for them because they are affraid losing their identity. They are still in a state of separation.

I have been there. I use to think that the problem of this world wasn’t mine. I use to think that the things was just the way it is. I started justifying my position in this world. I started thinking that it wasn’t really my fault if some people was dying in horrible conditions everyday. I think this way until I realize that I was in fact feeding the system that was allowing those things to happen. That realization move me to the next stage.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not realize that I can do something about all the injustice of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a self-justifier

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my identity by moving towards a world that is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that justifying my position was holding me back to create change in this world.

Day 38 : 8 stage of the process part 4 of 8 ( Self-delusioner)

For context listen to the audio 8 stage of the process (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5FTMjG6jA&t=179s)

In this blog we will adress the stage number 4 : the self delusioner. 

In the audio, Bernard explain that self-delusioner are talking themself into delusion. To create their delusion by using thing like mediation, mantra, prayer, energy work, light work. They them promote their delusion as if it was real.

He aslo explain that the main problem with that stage is that people, are on a path of self-betterment instead of a path of self-perfection. Instead of acknowledge their equality with other human being, they start seeing themself as more than other, or as better than other. This increase the gap of separation between them and other human being and will lead them to the extreme point of polarity.

I know exactly what it is because I have been there. I have invest 10 years into my "self-betterment". I wasn't aware that I was in fact increasing the gap of separation and creating misery within myself. Exactly like mention in the audio, I have reach the extreme of polarity, where I was no longer able to maintain that delusion that I had created for myself. My entire delusion have collapse. Even if this has not happen without suffering, this was necessary to me to move to the next stage.

I can now clearly see the self-delusioner of this world. Many of them put themselves in a position of leader/authority to reinforce their delusion and end up having thousands of follower. Many of them, will never be able to to reach the point of self-honesty and see the lie that they have become. At this point their ego is too big. they can't admit that everything that they convince themselves and their follower was a lie.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a self-delusioner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that become a self-delusioner was a necessary step toward self-honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that mediation,energy work etc. are not fixing the real problem of this world. In fact those thing maintain a person in denial and prevent any real change to occur

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to close my eye on the suffering of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-betterment is in fact increasing the gap of separation and therefore creating more conflict/friction that lead to more suffering on a individual and collective level.