Day 45 : Facing the fear of being judge

Few days ago, I tried to write but I wasn't able to.
usually I start to write and the words are just flowing, but it wasn't the case.
As I was staring at my white screen I was wondering what was wrong with me?

Few days latter I finally figure it out. The fear of being judge had came back to the surface.
I was sure it was gone, but I was wrong.

In fact it came back with more intensity than ever before.

The ego really didn't like being exposed. I have even consider deleting everything. My blog, video and even my Facebook account.

Instead of doing and giving up, I chose to face the point.

Why do I care so much about what other people think about me ?

In fact what other people think about me is just an automatic response to their programming that have been lay down during the first 7 years of their life. It does not worth more than the opinion of a toaster.

When I think about that, so many people maintain their status quo, because they are afraid of what other people would think of them if they would change.

That's kind of stupid when we really think about that. It would be so much easier to create a descent future for the child of this world if we would not be as busy to maintain that fake image that we have created to fit in our society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judge by other people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to other people opinion without considering the fact that people opinion came from their programmed consciousness/mind system that have been lay down in the first 7 years of their life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to some opinions when in fact those opinions are not considering the real world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be paralyzed by the fear of judgment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being attack/judge/rejected is common when we try to create change, therefore I should not let that stop me from doing what is best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand for what is best for everyone, because of fear of being rejected.