Day 83 : The beginning of DIP pro

I have started the DIPpro recently. 

I was pretty satisfied with the results that I was having with the DIPlite, and all the other Desteni matherial and tools that I had access to. 

I was starting to feel that I was virtually limitless. 

Interestingly enough, I quickly realize that I was lying to myself when I find myself in a situation where I feel completely blocked/stuck emotionally. I didn't how to deal with this massive emotional reaction on the moment. Every time I face a wall in my life, it bring me point into the space of raw self-honesty, where I must confront the fact that I am still incredibly limited despite how much progress I have done. 

 One thing about me is I hate being limited, so when I realize that I am limiting myself, I ask myself what can I do about that. At this point in my process, the answer was obvious to me. It was time for me to start the DIPpro. 

Only the first lesson completely blown my mind. I realize how little I was actually understanding about the mind. I was talking about the conscious/subconscious/unconscious mind without really having any real understanding of how it was actually working. 

This new vocabulary allowed me to see first hand the process that's going on within myself when I am triggered. That alone increase my self-awareness dramatically. I was able to see the reaction evolving within myself and redirecting myself through breathing. When I was writing on a specific point it was way more effective and I was actually going somewhere instead of just writing some random stuff. 

I then realize that what was missing for me was a STRUCTURED way of change. And that's why DIPpro is so awesome to me. It take me a while to get started, but I will stick to it. At this point in time, I will start increase the amount of responsibilities so I can lead more people to lead themselves. If I am not walking my process simultaneously, I could collapse. By staying consistent with my process, I also ensure that my ego will not take over my integrity. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have figure it out 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I didn't need DIPpro

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to invest into DIPpro 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the DIPpro is the most advance structured way of change available on the planet.

I commit myself to complete my DIPpro, no matter how long it take, no matter how challenging it is.