Day 71 : Principle of Self-honesty

2. The Principle of Self-Honesty

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Reflecting on myself and seeing every part of me (the good, bad, and ugly) without bias or judgment so that I can take responsibility to change that which I no longer accept and allow 

This particular principle have been life changing for me. At this point, I can affirm with certainty that no REAL change will ever occur until we reach the point of Self-honesty. 

For around 10 years, I have been of a path of personal development. Another way to say it is self-betterment. The problem with that path that I have taken, is that I was denying a part of myself. I wasn't acknowledging the worse part of me. I was seeking my own bliss and trying to discard the other side of the coin. This path have resulted to massive emotional instability. My life was an emotional roller-coaster where I was moving from bliss to depression with great intensity. I have been lucky enough to face a wall at some point in my process. I say lucky enough, because that wall that I have face for myself, force my to take an honest look to my life. It's like if everything that I repress/deny during my entire life was punching me in the face. I couldn't ignore it anymore.

In a way, I can understand why most people avoid being self-honest, because self-honesty is not always pretty. In fact it can be very painful to face what we have accepted and allowed to become a part of who we are, but it's there anyway. If we don't deal with it, we will die with it. 

Everything is in reverse, if we want to find ourselves, we must start to walk backwards. Self-honesty was for me the turning point, where I was able to acknowledge that I was lost. That was the ''stopping point'' where I was able to stop and ask myself, where the fuck I am going? I have then turn around 180 degree and start walking back to were I was coming from to find my way back to home/self. By walking back, I mean investigate every part of me. No more denying/suppressing it was time to face everything in me.

I have then started to use to the tools to take responsibility for everything that I have accepted and allowed myself that wasn't serving me and others. I know that I still have a long way to go, but at this point, I have seen enough results for myself to understand what self-realization is all about. So now it's all about being consistent in my process. Self-honesty will be the way I will keep myself accountable in my process.